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“My illumination of conscience”
The peace of Jesus be with you!
Beloved brothers and sisters, I come to witness today that Christ brought me back to life.
My parents had me baptised a few days after my birth. I followed all the catechism classes and I made my First Communion.
My mother, a holy woman, taught me to pray every night. However, after my communion, I no longer attended the Catholic Church until 1996, on which
date Jesus came to save me. I was 32 years old.
I will tell you a bit about the life that I led all those years, far from Jesus.
As soon as I turned 15, my life took a reversal. I began to smoke, frequented filthy bars, participated in card readings, practiced numerology, wrote to astrologers. When I finished my school studies, I spent all the week-ends in discoteques smoking hashish, drinking alcohol; I wore mini-skirts and designer clothes and, without guilty feelings, I frolicked with the men I met. I was searching for Love with a capital L.
Satan was keeping me bound and prevented me from turning towards the love of Christ. He blinded me with what men could give me: pleasure of the flesh, money, wellbeing and the world. I was under his hellish bindings, but I needed somebody to take much care of me yet I wanted to die without love. I was suicidal and self-destructive after having sustained much wickedness in my youth and satan, in his cruelty, poisoned my painful wounds.
It was during an evening in a nightclub that I met a man and, at the end of a few months, we decided to live common law. I did not know that if I had sexual relations while I was not married in the Church that my soul was uniting with impure spirits. At the end of 5 years, I left him and I moved to another city in which I made the acquaintance of an astrologer and a Rosicrucian of AMORC.
The astrologer proposed that I have my karmic astrological theme done and I accepted! She explained to me that it consisted of studying my astrological theme based on my previous lives and studying my karma!
Sometime later I went to a spirit centre to listen to the teachings of a guru whom I found in a book that I studied, named « The Gospel According to Spiritism » by Allan Kardec.
One day this guru proposed to those who wished to participate, on Wednesday evening, in live seances of spiritism and due to my innocence, I accepted. And there, I began to see mediums who entered trances, who received messages from so-called Curate of Ars, Saint Theresa of the Child Jesus or still the Mother of God, even sometimes The Lord Jesus-Christ plus extra terrestrials! Had I known that these were fallen spirits that delivered these messages, I would have left this spirit centre right away.
And then, one Wednesday evening, the guru proposed to those who wished it, have a great cleansing of the soul!
I suffered greatly in my interior, but at that moment, I did not know that it consisted of accumulated sins that were oppressing me. I thought that this interior suffering was due to the karma that I would have accumulated in my so called previous lives since I believed in reincarnation.
Believing that the guru had the power to free me of my previous lives, I accepted his proposal and sat next to him. He was serving the demon and, by accepting to give myself to his power, I allowed the demon to take possession of me.
The evil spirits had penetrated me because of my errant ways: card reading, pendulum, astrology, horoscope, palm reading, initiation to yoga, adoration of Buddha, esoteric meditation, opening to chakras, chi gong, etc....
The guru had laid his hand on two of my chakras with the powers he acquired from the demon. The chakra of the heart and the chakra of the third eye!
Then he told me that he had transmitted light to me. But unfortunaltely, it was the light of God's enemy.
Then, I went home and began to feel ill. At the next spirit seance, I lived through a very difficult experience. The kundalini arose.
The kundalini is a powerful energy lodged in the sacrum bone at the base of the back. When it is aroused, it climbs along the spine and works its way from (chakra)center to center right up to the coronary chakra located above the head.
During this experience, I had the impression that I was raptured to heaven such was the power of this energy.
What I had not understood at that moment was that by the practicing of yoga and of the kundalini, I gave power to satan to enter into me and lead me from the interior. I did not know that the practice of yoga could open the door of my soul to evil spiritual entities. Yoga is not a simple practice. It belongs to a true religion from which it is hard to separate oneself. It made me adore divinities that had spiritual functions. I learned from a priest who is knowledgeable on these questions, that yoga is a Hindu practice that unites the temporal me « JIVA » to « BRAHMAN » the infinite, the Hindu conception of God.
This god is presented as an impersonal spiritual substance. It is not Jesus-Christ, the personal God of Revelation. By invoking strange deities that do not exist, I risk in reality to enter into contact with demons and submit myself to them. I then realised that by practicing yoga, I was adoring a god other than the Holy Trinity, Father, Son and Holy Spirit and consequently, I was breaking God's first commandment: «You shall not have gods other than Me. »
So, feeling more and more sick, I decided to abandon these techniques and since I opened myself to the chakras, I was between life and death for many long months and if I am alive today, I can say thank you to Jesus.
My thirst for knowledge not being quenched yet, I joined the Rosicrusians AMORC and I quickly began to receive small booklets for study.
In this Order I studied different things such as the psychic body of man, stellar travelling, human aura, chakras, vocal sounds, mantras...
Throughout these studies, I sought to know and understand the god of my heart that we called « The Cosmic One ». But I understood nothing of this false god and its energies. Imagine what kind of love relationship I had with that god! None! No loving heart to heart as I can now live out with Jesus of love in the Eucharist.
In my research into New Age that does not come from God, I practiced magnetism, telepathy, pendulum, all kinds of magic, hypnosis, New Age breathing, aura reading, all forms of healing through energies, crystals, music and colours , meditations on New Age music and reiki which the bishops of the USA warned against. In my body I experienced that satan had placed his energy within me with his power and I began to tremble.
In the Rosicrucian Order, I met a man who was alone for many years because his wife had left him for another man. A few months later, we decided to get a civil marriage. We could not get married in the Catholic Church because he had previously received the sacrament of marriage.
And here comes a blast of grace! While looking at a poster of the Sacred Heart of Jesus, I heard His voice that said to me: « My holy wounds will save you »! The wounds of His painful Passion. Soon after, during a pilgrimage to Medjugorje, I accepted to be reinstated in the Catholic Church. Here I am, so little, bearing my great misery before the Blessed Sacrament that was exposed, the real presence of the living Jesus, body, blood, soul and divinity.
Upon my return to France, God gave me a first supernatural experience in the midst of which He asked me to do penance.
He showed me my soul enclosed inside the Beast that had the head of a Lion as described in the Apocalypse. I saw the demons that surrounded me and were ready to take me with them to the place of darkness. These demons were linked to each other in my sins.
When I began to scan more deeply into my soul, I saw myself as a hyena as I descended in the abyss, into the crater of fire, blaspheming and feeling hate towards God like the damned who live as in a beehive so great is the noise. In that place, in my soul I lived in a state of complete insanity. That is how all the damned live for all of eternity. They suffer for each of the sins that they committed, which is what makes for their insanity.
The state of my soul was the consequence of my disobedient acts towards the Law of God and satan told me in his fury: « I condemned you to the punishment of hell ». I did not know that satan was burning in hell and wanted everybody to burn with him. His hatred had penetrated me. I saw how satan and his fallen angels with the damned were attacking souls at the level of their heart and their brain so as to destroy them. The worst is that I heard my soul saying: satan, I love you! It was truly horrible! I was a rotting demon!
You know, I was a worldly woman, seductress, courtesan and dominatrix. I would say that I was a liberated woman but in fact I was chained to Lucifer. My rebellion had begun while listening to rock music, the Beatles, ACDC and the spirits of this evil music had entered in me... and I said everywhere:
« Peace and love ». I used these words with some of my hippie friends. My interior rebellion led me to be in favour of homosexuality, divorce, living common law, abortion.
At that moment, I had not been made conscious that I was a great persecutor of the law of Christ, but you know that I was bound by the abyss and I could not react otherwise. It is satan's light, which is nothing other than darkness, that lived within me. If my mother had not prayed a lot and had not made sacrifices for my soul, at this time I would always be blinded by the light of Lucifer. Fasting and prayer helped me a lot.
Then I heard the enemy of God speak to the Blessed Virgin whom he fears terribly. Speaking about souls he said: « I hold them all, I will have them all» and I also heard that he holds many priests (because they do not do penance and no longer pray). If the demon succeeds in damning a priest with a woman, he then rejoices because during that time, the priest no longer accomplishes his duty which is to save souls. Woe to these women who turn priests away from their vocation! They are already under God's justice and the torments of hell await them if they do not repent! If you only knew how the Blessed Virgin sheds tears because she sees the Beast engulf more and more souls. So she sheds many tears of blood.
Satan leads souls to condemnation through love of the world, of money, of the flesh and New Age.
Personally, I was condemned to eternal rape in hell by him if I had not repented of my sins of the flesh when I lived common law or when I was married to a man who was divorced. I will speak to you about this later. At that particular moment of my life, I did not know that God forbad sexual relations, except within marriage in the Church in order to have children.
God allows me to hear the devil within my interior and to know his evil intentions so that I can reveal these to my brothers and sisters for their salvation.
The devil told me that he is the one who provided sexual pleasure. He always tries to rape me or give me pleasure through very strong interior temptations, but he does not succeed because I asked the Blessed Virgin to keep my soul from pleasure and it is thanks to the scapular of Mount Carmel that the Blessed Virgin protects me.
Rape by the devil or demons, is a chastisement of hell for all the souls who do not regret sinning through the flesh.
Personally, I should have atoned for all eternity if I had not repented of my mockeries. I was very proud.
So the Blessed Virgin asked me to do penance for laughing as I used to laugh about things that offended God.
Saint Faustina Kowalska in her Little Journal said that she was introduced to the depths of Hell by an Angel. It is a place of great torments. And it is of great extent.
The types of suffering that she saw:
- The first suffering that constitutes hell is the loss of God.
- The second is perpetual remorse of the conscience.
- The third is that one’s condition will never change.
- The fourth is the fire that will penetrate the soul without destroying it - a terrible suffering, since it is a purely spiritual fire, lit by God’s anger.
- The fifth torture suffering, is continual darkness and a terrible suffocating smell and, despite the darkness, the devils and the souls see each other and all the evil, both of others and their own.
- The sixth suffering is the constant company of Satan.
- The seventh torture is horrible despair, the hatred of God, curses and blasphemies.
These are tortures suffered by all the damned together, but that is not the end of the sufferings. There are special tortures destined for particular souls. These are the torments of the senses.
Each soul undergoes terrible and indescribable sufferings, related to the manner in which it has sinned. There are caverns and pits of torture where one form of agony differs from another.
Sister Faustina said that she would have died at the sight of these terrible sufferings, if the Almighty Power of God had not sustained her and she added: Let each sinner know that he will be tortured for eternity in the senses by which he will have sinned.
If you only knew the hatred Satan has towards each one of us and towards God and priests, it is terrible. God revealed to me: « Reverence my priests ».
Priests are the apple of the eye of Jesus. Without priests, nobody could get to heaven as it is they only who give us the sacraments which open the Life of Christ within us and grant us His forgiveness.
After these moments of intense horror, Jesus pulled me from the abyss by taking me to Him and I felt His power take me out of this state of darkness, in which I was terrified of everything.
God, in His great goodness, consoled me and told me with great charity:
« You are Mine ». 'Think of Me only', 'Think of loving Me only', « I will heal you ». « You bathe in My Blood » 'I created you with My Hands'. 'Give Me great love and sin no more'. 'No longer sell your soul to the devil' 'No longer betray Me' 'I am your only master'. 'I am the Way, the Truth and the Life'. 'No longer remain far from Me'. 'Listen to My word, observe My commandments, observe My sabbaths, it is to say the Day of The Lord'.
As for the commandments of God, I knew that there were ten but no more than that. So I took the Bible, I read about them and after getting to know them, I discovered that since the age of fifteen I had been living in the state of very grave sin and some of these were mortal sins. Then Jesus told me: « Defend My law ». And it is what I have been doing since 1996. In order to serve Him well, the Holy Spirit told me that He gave me the charism of Truth!
Then, I went back to the one to whom I was to be wed and explained to him that we had to live in chastity until the civil wedding. A few months went by and we got married at the town hall. Two days after the wedding, I left the wedding chamber because Jesus came to remove me by telling me: « Obey Me ». « I ask for reparation; your sin offended Me ». « Submit to Me My Daughter ». and He showed me the demons to whom I was bonded because of my sin of adultery.
Imagine my despair! It was impossible for me to think that I could live without a man. I needed to be protected... I had just married so as to begin a home and a family but God told me at that moment that it was forbidden to procreate because I did not receive the sacrament of marriage.
The following morning I looked for a priest confessor who received me charitably and I explained what God was asking of me. The priest confirmed that we had to live as brother and sister and he added that I could receive communion only if I lived in chastity. Then he explained that divorce does not dissolve Church marriage and that my husband remained married before God to his lawful wife till death do them part, even if she had rebuilt her life (now living with another person). What God has bound, man cannot separate!
I know very well that God will demand accounts from this woman. God told me that He cries over unfaithful women. This woman who left her husband will be told by God during her particular judgement: « Woman, what have you done with your husband? » Had she prayed to God, He would have had them reconcile, but her heart was hardened. You know that if a woman does not forgive her husband or leaves him, her soul is in the abyss. However, the Church does allow for bodily separation, but not divorce.
Brothers and sisters, who are we to not forgive while God forgave his executioners from the Cross? How do you expect to be reunited with your enemies in heaven if, on earth, you do not love them? You know, God told me: « If you want Me to forgive you, forgive others, as He taught us in the prayer 'Our Father' ». And I was truly liberated when I forgave everybody, when I had masses celebrated for my persecutors, when I prayed for those who injured me...
After leaving the priest, back at home, I began to feel much distress because I had to speak to my husband who had become my brother in just a few hours and who accepted the situation with much difficulty, but he accepted it anyway because the salvation of his soul was at stake.
I then explained to him that I was going to leave the Rosicrucian Order AMORC.
Convinced that I was on a deep erroneous path, I began to tear up into small pieces all the books by Rosicrucian authors, all the books on numerology, palm reading, card reading, books on spiritism by Allan Kardec and Leon Denis and the New Age books such as those by H. Blavatsky or A. Bailey or still those about occult sciences. I got rid of them because as long as they remained at my place, the demons lived there as well. Once the Blessed Virgin was enthroned at home, calm returned to my household. I replaced all my old books with books such as the Bible, the Catechism of the Catholic Church, the Lives of Saints, the Revelations of Souls in Purgatory, the Saints of the Catholic Church and I was very moved.
I experienced great interior suffering because of my numerous sins. I began, moved by the Holy Spirit, to have masses celebrated for my soul in order to regain peace. During the celebration of these masses, the Holy Spirit would again awaken my conscience to all the sins I committed since my childhood . When I decided to go and see a priest, the devil who was furious told me: « Go to hell ». So I rushed to the church and the devil pursued me, saying: « You are forgiven, you are forgiven ».
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“My illumination of conscience”
The peace of Jesus be with you!
Beloved brothers and sisters, I come to witness today that Christ brought me back to life.
My parents had me baptised a few days after my birth. I followed all the catechism classes and I made my First Communion.
My mother, a holy woman, taught me to pray every night. However, after my communion, I no longer attended the Catholic Church until 1996, on which
date Jesus came to save me. I was 32 years old.
I will tell you a bit about the life that I led all those years, far from Jesus.
As soon as I turned 15, my life took a reversal. I began to smoke, frequented filthy bars, participated in card readings, practiced numerology, wrote to astrologers. When I finished my school studies, I spent all the week-ends in discoteques smoking hashish, drinking alcohol; I wore mini-skirts and designer clothes and, without guilty feelings, I frolicked with the men I met. I was searching for Love with a capital L.
Satan was keeping me bound and prevented me from turning towards the love of Christ. He blinded me with what men could give me: pleasure of the flesh, money, wellbeing and the world. I was under his hellish bindings, but I needed somebody to take much care of me yet I wanted to die without love. I was suicidal and self-destructive after having sustained much wickedness in my youth and satan, in his cruelty, poisoned my painful wounds.
It was during an evening in a nightclub that I met a man and, at the end of a few months, we decided to live common law. I did not know that if I had sexual relations while I was not married in the Church that my soul was uniting with impure spirits. At the end of 5 years, I left him and I moved to another city in which I made the acquaintance of an astrologer and a Rosicrucian of AMORC.
The astrologer proposed that I have my karmic astrological theme done and I accepted! She explained to me that it consisted of studying my astrological theme based on my previous lives and studying my karma!
Sometime later I went to a spirit centre to listen to the teachings of a guru whom I found in a book that I studied, named « The Gospel According to Spiritism » by Allan Kardec.
One day this guru proposed to those who wished to participate, on Wednesday evening, in live seances of spiritism and due to my innocence, I accepted. And there, I began to see mediums who entered trances, who received messages from so-called Curate of Ars, Saint Theresa of the Child Jesus or still the Mother of God, even sometimes The Lord Jesus-Christ plus extra terrestrials! Had I known that these were fallen spirits that delivered these messages, I would have left this spirit centre right away.
And then, one Wednesday evening, the guru proposed to those who wished it, have a great cleansing of the soul!
I suffered greatly in my interior, but at that moment, I did not know that it consisted of accumulated sins that were oppressing me. I thought that this interior suffering was due to the karma that I would have accumulated in my so called previous lives since I believed in reincarnation.
Believing that the guru had the power to free me of my previous lives, I accepted his proposal and sat next to him. He was serving the demon and, by accepting to give myself to his power, I allowed the demon to take possession of me.
The evil spirits had penetrated me because of my errant ways: card reading, pendulum, astrology, horoscope, palm reading, initiation to yoga, adoration of Buddha, esoteric meditation, opening to chakras, chi gong, etc....
The guru had laid his hand on two of my chakras with the powers he acquired from the demon. The chakra of the heart and the chakra of the third eye!
Then he told me that he had transmitted light to me. But unfortunaltely, it was the light of God's enemy.
Then, I went home and began to feel ill. At the next spirit seance, I lived through a very difficult experience. The kundalini arose.
The kundalini is a powerful energy lodged in the sacrum bone at the base of the back. When it is aroused, it climbs along the spine and works its way from (chakra)center to center right up to the coronary chakra located above the head.
During this experience, I had the impression that I was raptured to heaven such was the power of this energy.
What I had not understood at that moment was that by the practicing of yoga and of the kundalini, I gave power to satan to enter into me and lead me from the interior. I did not know that the practice of yoga could open the door of my soul to evil spiritual entities. Yoga is not a simple practice. It belongs to a true religion from which it is hard to separate oneself. It made me adore divinities that had spiritual functions. I learned from a priest who is knowledgeable on these questions, that yoga is a Hindu practice that unites the temporal me « JIVA » to « BRAHMAN » the infinite, the Hindu conception of God.
This god is presented as an impersonal spiritual substance. It is not Jesus-Christ, the personal God of Revelation. By invoking strange deities that do not exist, I risk in reality to enter into contact with demons and submit myself to them. I then realised that by practicing yoga, I was adoring a god other than the Holy Trinity, Father, Son and Holy Spirit and consequently, I was breaking God's first commandment: «You shall not have gods other than Me. »
So, feeling more and more sick, I decided to abandon these techniques and since I opened myself to the chakras, I was between life and death for many long months and if I am alive today, I can say thank you to Jesus.
My thirst for knowledge not being quenched yet, I joined the Rosicrusians AMORC and I quickly began to receive small booklets for study.
In this Order I studied different things such as the psychic body of man, stellar travelling, human aura, chakras, vocal sounds, mantras...
Throughout these studies, I sought to know and understand the god of my heart that we called « The Cosmic One ». But I understood nothing of this false god and its energies. Imagine what kind of love relationship I had with that god! None! No loving heart to heart as I can now live out with Jesus of love in the Eucharist.
In my research into New Age that does not come from God, I practiced magnetism, telepathy, pendulum, all kinds of magic, hypnosis, New Age breathing, aura reading, all forms of healing through energies, crystals, music and colours , meditations on New Age music and reiki which the bishops of the USA warned against. In my body I experienced that satan had placed his energy within me with his power and I began to tremble.
In the Rosicrucian Order, I met a man who was alone for many years because his wife had left him for another man. A few months later, we decided to get a civil marriage. We could not get married in the Catholic Church because he had previously received the sacrament of marriage.
And here comes a blast of grace! While looking at a poster of the Sacred Heart of Jesus, I heard His voice that said to me: « My holy wounds will save you »! The wounds of His painful Passion. Soon after, during a pilgrimage to Medjugorje, I accepted to be reinstated in the Catholic Church. Here I am, so little, bearing my great misery before the Blessed Sacrament that was exposed, the real presence of the living Jesus, body, blood, soul and divinity.
Upon my return to France, God gave me a first supernatural experience in the midst of which He asked me to do penance.
He showed me my soul enclosed inside the Beast that had the head of a Lion as described in the Apocalypse. I saw the demons that surrounded me and were ready to take me with them to the place of darkness. These demons were linked to each other in my sins.
When I began to scan more deeply into my soul, I saw myself as a hyena as I descended in the abyss, into the crater of fire, blaspheming and feeling hate towards God like the damned who live as in a beehive so great is the noise. In that place, in my soul I lived in a state of complete insanity. That is how all the damned live for all of eternity. They suffer for each of the sins that they committed, which is what makes for their insanity.
The state of my soul was the consequence of my disobedient acts towards the Law of God and satan told me in his fury: « I condemned you to the punishment of hell ». I did not know that satan was burning in hell and wanted everybody to burn with him. His hatred had penetrated me. I saw how satan and his fallen angels with the damned were attacking souls at the level of their heart and their brain so as to destroy them. The worst is that I heard my soul saying: satan, I love you! It was truly horrible! I was a rotting demon!
You know, I was a worldly woman, seductress, courtesan and dominatrix. I would say that I was a liberated woman but in fact I was chained to Lucifer. My rebellion had begun while listening to rock music, the Beatles, ACDC and the spirits of this evil music had entered in me... and I said everywhere:
« Peace and love ». I used these words with some of my hippie friends. My interior rebellion led me to be in favour of homosexuality, divorce, living common law, abortion.
At that moment, I had not been made conscious that I was a great persecutor of the law of Christ, but you know that I was bound by the abyss and I could not react otherwise. It is satan's light, which is nothing other than darkness, that lived within me. If my mother had not prayed a lot and had not made sacrifices for my soul, at this time I would always be blinded by the light of Lucifer. Fasting and prayer helped me a lot.
Then I heard the enemy of God speak to the Blessed Virgin whom he fears terribly. Speaking about souls he said: « I hold them all, I will have them all» and I also heard that he holds many priests (because they do not do penance and no longer pray). If the demon succeeds in damning a priest with a woman, he then rejoices because during that time, the priest no longer accomplishes his duty which is to save souls. Woe to these women who turn priests away from their vocation! They are already under God's justice and the torments of hell await them if they do not repent! If you only knew how the Blessed Virgin sheds tears because she sees the Beast engulf more and more souls. So she sheds many tears of blood.
Satan leads souls to condemnation through love of the world, of money, of the flesh and New Age.
Personally, I was condemned to eternal rape in hell by him if I had not repented of my sins of the flesh when I lived common law or when I was married to a man who was divorced. I will speak to you about this later. At that particular moment of my life, I did not know that God forbad sexual relations, except within marriage in the Church in order to have children.
God allows me to hear the devil within my interior and to know his evil intentions so that I can reveal these to my brothers and sisters for their salvation.
The devil told me that he is the one who provided sexual pleasure. He always tries to rape me or give me pleasure through very strong interior temptations, but he does not succeed because I asked the Blessed Virgin to keep my soul from pleasure and it is thanks to the scapular of Mount Carmel that the Blessed Virgin protects me.
Rape by the devil or demons, is a chastisement of hell for all the souls who do not regret sinning through the flesh.
Personally, I should have atoned for all eternity if I had not repented of my mockeries. I was very proud.
So the Blessed Virgin asked me to do penance for laughing as I used to laugh about things that offended God.
Saint Faustina Kowalska in her Little Journal said that she was introduced to the depths of Hell by an Angel. It is a place of great torments. And it is of great extent.
The types of suffering that she saw:
- The first suffering that constitutes hell is the loss of God.
- The second is perpetual remorse of the conscience.
- The third is that one’s condition will never change.
- The fourth is the fire that will penetrate the soul without destroying it - a terrible suffering, since it is a purely spiritual fire, lit by God’s anger.
- The fifth torture suffering, is continual darkness and a terrible suffocating smell and, despite the darkness, the devils and the souls see each other and all the evil, both of others and their own.
- The sixth suffering is the constant company of Satan.
- The seventh torture is horrible despair, the hatred of God, curses and blasphemies.
These are tortures suffered by all the damned together, but that is not the end of the sufferings. There are special tortures destined for particular souls. These are the torments of the senses.
Each soul undergoes terrible and indescribable sufferings, related to the manner in which it has sinned. There are caverns and pits of torture where one form of agony differs from another.
Sister Faustina said that she would have died at the sight of these terrible sufferings, if the Almighty Power of God had not sustained her and she added: Let each sinner know that he will be tortured for eternity in the senses by which he will have sinned.
If you only knew the hatred Satan has towards each one of us and towards God and priests, it is terrible. God revealed to me: « Reverence my priests ».
Priests are the apple of the eye of Jesus. Without priests, nobody could get to heaven as it is they only who give us the sacraments which open the Life of Christ within us and grant us His forgiveness.
After these moments of intense horror, Jesus pulled me from the abyss by taking me to Him and I felt His power take me out of this state of darkness, in which I was terrified of everything.
God, in His great goodness, consoled me and told me with great charity:
« You are Mine ». 'Think of Me only', 'Think of loving Me only', « I will heal you ». « You bathe in My Blood » 'I created you with My Hands'. 'Give Me great love and sin no more'. 'No longer sell your soul to the devil' 'No longer betray Me' 'I am your only master'. 'I am the Way, the Truth and the Life'. 'No longer remain far from Me'. 'Listen to My word, observe My commandments, observe My sabbaths, it is to say the Day of The Lord'.
As for the commandments of God, I knew that there were ten but no more than that. So I took the Bible, I read about them and after getting to know them, I discovered that since the age of fifteen I had been living in the state of very grave sin and some of these were mortal sins. Then Jesus told me: « Defend My law ». And it is what I have been doing since 1996. In order to serve Him well, the Holy Spirit told me that He gave me the charism of Truth!
Then, I went back to the one to whom I was to be wed and explained to him that we had to live in chastity until the civil wedding. A few months went by and we got married at the town hall. Two days after the wedding, I left the wedding chamber because Jesus came to remove me by telling me: « Obey Me ». « I ask for reparation; your sin offended Me ». « Submit to Me My Daughter ». and He showed me the demons to whom I was bonded because of my sin of adultery.
Imagine my despair! It was impossible for me to think that I could live without a man. I needed to be protected... I had just married so as to begin a home and a family but God told me at that moment that it was forbidden to procreate because I did not receive the sacrament of marriage.
The following morning I looked for a priest confessor who received me charitably and I explained what God was asking of me. The priest confirmed that we had to live as brother and sister and he added that I could receive communion only if I lived in chastity. Then he explained that divorce does not dissolve Church marriage and that my husband remained married before God to his lawful wife till death do them part, even if she had rebuilt her life (now living with another person). What God has bound, man cannot separate!
I know very well that God will demand accounts from this woman. God told me that He cries over unfaithful women. This woman who left her husband will be told by God during her particular judgement: « Woman, what have you done with your husband? » Had she prayed to God, He would have had them reconcile, but her heart was hardened. You know that if a woman does not forgive her husband or leaves him, her soul is in the abyss. However, the Church does allow for bodily separation, but not divorce.
Brothers and sisters, who are we to not forgive while God forgave his executioners from the Cross? How do you expect to be reunited with your enemies in heaven if, on earth, you do not love them? You know, God told me: « If you want Me to forgive you, forgive others, as He taught us in the prayer 'Our Father' ». And I was truly liberated when I forgave everybody, when I had masses celebrated for my persecutors, when I prayed for those who injured me...
After leaving the priest, back at home, I began to feel much distress because I had to speak to my husband who had become my brother in just a few hours and who accepted the situation with much difficulty, but he accepted it anyway because the salvation of his soul was at stake.
I then explained to him that I was going to leave the Rosicrucian Order AMORC.
Convinced that I was on a deep erroneous path, I began to tear up into small pieces all the books by Rosicrucian authors, all the books on numerology, palm reading, card reading, books on spiritism by Allan Kardec and Leon Denis and the New Age books such as those by H. Blavatsky or A. Bailey or still those about occult sciences. I got rid of them because as long as they remained at my place, the demons lived there as well. Once the Blessed Virgin was enthroned at home, calm returned to my household. I replaced all my old books with books such as the Bible, the Catechism of the Catholic Church, the Lives of Saints, the Revelations of Souls in Purgatory, the Saints of the Catholic Church and I was very moved.
I experienced great interior suffering because of my numerous sins. I began, moved by the Holy Spirit, to have masses celebrated for my soul in order to regain peace. During the celebration of these masses, the Holy Spirit would again awaken my conscience to all the sins I committed since my childhood . When I decided to go and see a priest, the devil who was furious told me: « Go to hell ». So I rushed to the church and the devil pursued me, saying: « You are forgiven, you are forgiven ».
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