Hi all I haven't been active on this site for awhile. There is something that has been on my mind today and over the past year or more. In June 2017 my Boyfriend of 8 months broke up with me before that we had been best friends for about 2 years. I have still been good friends with him ever since. But I still feel like I am struggling getting over him I still care about him a lot and he is one of my go to people for a variety of personal things.
I would never want to not be friends with him but I think if he asked me if I wanted to date again I would say yes especially more recently some of his skype video chats occasionally I am not sure if I am misreading good friends over affection and interest since I am not generally that good at picking up on stuff like that. He believed that we wouldn't be a happy married couple and there were some issues that definitely long term unless he changed his attitude I couldn't live with or I would be unhappy and miserable.
Also when I was dating him some of my friends would say he was not acting properly sort of emotionally abusive and I've recently been worried that I caused a lot of the problems and it bothers me since I feel I don't what was really the case I am unsure. We were not matched very well love language wise in some ways.
Please prayers I get over this and advice. I know it takes time but I feel like I myself may have prolonged the dwelling. Also the break up continued to have some lasting affect extremely bruising my self-image and confidence.
I would never want to not be friends with him but I think if he asked me if I wanted to date again I would say yes especially more recently some of his skype video chats occasionally I am not sure if I am misreading good friends over affection and interest since I am not generally that good at picking up on stuff like that. He believed that we wouldn't be a happy married couple and there were some issues that definitely long term unless he changed his attitude I couldn't live with or I would be unhappy and miserable.
Also when I was dating him some of my friends would say he was not acting properly sort of emotionally abusive and I've recently been worried that I caused a lot of the problems and it bothers me since I feel I don't what was really the case I am unsure. We were not matched very well love language wise in some ways.
Please prayers I get over this and advice. I know it takes time but I feel like I myself may have prolonged the dwelling. Also the break up continued to have some lasting affect extremely bruising my self-image and confidence.