This one is going to be a bit long.. Some of you friends already have prayed for me and know what I have been going through.. My wife had a miscarriage last October.. She had one more this month.. She went through D&C procedure on 14th March.. That was a Friday.. We went to Church on Sunday.. In between that, I looked perfectly fine from a worldly perspective.. I did not breakdown or anything.. I was saying the Lord was strengthening me all through this.. It is all God's will.. And so on.. But I knew it was not deep from my heart.. And within me there was another struggle going on spiritually.. Did I lack in faith? Did I fail to hear the Lord's will? Did I walk out of God's will in my life by not hearing to him? I did not realize the mistake I was doing.. The focus was on me.. What "I" did not do!! With this I went to Church on Sunday..
Praise and Worship was going on.. Most of the times we often stick to classical hymns in our Church.. And this song came up.. I don't think I have ever sang this song in our Church.. I did not know about this song before.. The pastor gave a small background to the song and we started singing.. I went through an amazing and stunning experience.. I can't explain it with words! I felt like I was sweating.. It was a moment where I felt the I was just alone in the room with Jesus Christ in front of me.. The words pierced my heart.. I felt the comfort of Spirit.. I personally experienced it.. I have never felt so confident that the Lord is holding me strong in his hands.. And there is NOTHING that can change that.. It is not my actions that drive my life, but the grace of God which matters... It is well with my soul
I had a comfortable childhood and no abuses.. Got a job while I was still in college.. Good salary and moved to US at a young age.. Have never gone through any major tests or trial.. Last few months have come hard on me.. But this assurance from the Lord has been a life changing experience for me.. I am so glad the Lord has helped me to come strong out of this.. I call this a life changing experience.. Because I felt so strongly how the Lord is holding me in his arms..
I might never be able to explain this experience fully through words.. And this might not sound such a big deal for others.. But I have never felt the presence of God and never felt this close to the Lord than the moment of singing the song.. After that I wanted to share a few words to share how the Lord took us through the entire situation.. I just started "On Friday..." and I was just crying and crying.. I have never cried before so many people.. And the Pastor continued sharing rest of the story with the congregation.. I have talked about this with a few people.. Everytime I talk about this or think about this while I am alone (like in car), tears just roll up in my eyes! I am finishing this post once again with tears stored up in my eyes.. I am in office and if someone asks I can make up that it is because of my contacts
It is well with my soul...
Some background on the song and the original lyrics:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/It_Is_Well_with_My_Soul
Praise and Worship was going on.. Most of the times we often stick to classical hymns in our Church.. And this song came up.. I don't think I have ever sang this song in our Church.. I did not know about this song before.. The pastor gave a small background to the song and we started singing.. I went through an amazing and stunning experience.. I can't explain it with words! I felt like I was sweating.. It was a moment where I felt the I was just alone in the room with Jesus Christ in front of me.. The words pierced my heart.. I felt the comfort of Spirit.. I personally experienced it.. I have never felt so confident that the Lord is holding me strong in his hands.. And there is NOTHING that can change that.. It is not my actions that drive my life, but the grace of God which matters... It is well with my soul
I had a comfortable childhood and no abuses.. Got a job while I was still in college.. Good salary and moved to US at a young age.. Have never gone through any major tests or trial.. Last few months have come hard on me.. But this assurance from the Lord has been a life changing experience for me.. I am so glad the Lord has helped me to come strong out of this.. I call this a life changing experience.. Because I felt so strongly how the Lord is holding me in his arms..
I might never be able to explain this experience fully through words.. And this might not sound such a big deal for others.. But I have never felt the presence of God and never felt this close to the Lord than the moment of singing the song.. After that I wanted to share a few words to share how the Lord took us through the entire situation.. I just started "On Friday..." and I was just crying and crying.. I have never cried before so many people.. And the Pastor continued sharing rest of the story with the congregation.. I have talked about this with a few people.. Everytime I talk about this or think about this while I am alone (like in car), tears just roll up in my eyes! I am finishing this post once again with tears stored up in my eyes.. I am in office and if someone asks I can make up that it is because of my contacts

It is well with my soul...
Some background on the song and the original lyrics:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/It_Is_Well_with_My_Soul