Give any man a television remote control, and you will see ADD in each of us. I have a satellite dish, about a hundred channels, and I get so angry when I watch TV which is about two hours a month.
When I do have the time I find one program that I like, but I have to find another, and when a commercial comes on, I switch.
Gosh! I get so frustrated when the other channel has syncronized it's commercials with the first program!
You would think that for 20 bucks a month I could watch tv for two hours without having to have a kaniption fit!
Yet Alas, I too suffer from ADD.
Violet, I feel so sorry that you have these feelings. Are you taking any meds for this problem? I showed your reply to Norm and he said medication helps him so much. But, he doesn't have the same feelings you have. He had a very violent childhood in which his father killed his mother at his age of 14. So, he thinks that's why he has panic attacks (also his father tried to drown him at a young age). But, he takes meds for panic attacks also. Since we have moved here to Iowa, he is a different person to live with and I believe it is because of the meds he was put on after he tried to commit suicide.
I just wish you did not feel the way you do about yourself. You have helped many, many people on this forum and you are such a sweet, understanding, and forgiving person. God has blessed us with you! Dear, Violet, I will pray for you because you should not have to go through this kind of thing. I will pray that God will show you what a blessed child of His you truly are. Love, Bonnie :groupray:
I believe my ADD is what destroyed my marriage.
I have been a burden on my entire family and I know I have
Violet, when things go wrong, or the way we don't want them to, the first thing we do is try to find something to blame it on.I have let them all down.
Bonnie, oh my heavens, I feel so bad for your husband.
I am glad he has been blessed with a wife such as you.
I have talked to my Dr. about meds and he put me on antidepressants which do nothing for me.
I do take meds for panic attacks. I pray that I will overcome all this and have to take nothing but my thyroid medicine.
The problem, as you know, is that I am going through a divorce now and I believe my ADD is what destroyed my marriage.
I have been a burden on my entire family and I know I have, I don't blame them for being angry with me.
I have let them all down.
We had a very bad ice storm two months ago. Everything was by lamp light for a few days, we ate rabbit and veneson cooked on the grill, no computer or TV, no radio, hot water had to be cooked on the grill, so we were reminded of conservation.
It was very hard at first. (Silly things like flipping on the light switch when you went to the bathroom)
Soon, we became much closer. "I'm going to go outside and boil some water, is there anything you need while I'm at it?"
Stuff like that. We made shadow puppets by the light of a candle one night. We slept on one bed, under a pile of blankets, like they did in Jesus time.
ADD may be a symptom of modern reality in my personal opinion.
Violet, perhaps, just perhaps, you might want to see if you can find a few days to get away from everything, except God, your family, and yourself. You may discover that the ADD is really just a symptom of your lifestyle.
And if not, a few days making shadow puppets, and bathing in a bowl never hurt anybody!
Violet, I didn't know you were going through a divorce, and I posted my last comment before I read that.
First, keep talking to your doctor. The internet is no place for guidance, seek a professional.
That being said, you made a few comments that you might want to think about....
Violet, when things go wrong, or the way we don't want them to, the first thing we do is try to find something to blame it on.
You have blamed things on yourself. You could have blamed things on money, or weather, or your location, or your husbands boss, or ADD, but you selected yourself.
May I suggest that you blame things on something else?
Pick a tree out back, and blame it. ....... Now go take an axe and cut that trouble making chunck of satanic wood to the ground!
Then, remember, that you haven't let anyone down. You have done your best. Trust in God, and talk with the people closest to you. Listen to them, and tell them how much you care, and remind them that you love them, even if you do not always agree. Just make things right.
You can do that!
I am praying for you Violet, to have peace in your heart. Do not play the blame game (especially not yourself). Just pray like you have been and trust in him, he is your rock and your fortress. As long as you are trusting in him, you are standing on solid ground, no matter what your circumstances may seem like. Do not ever feel like a failure, for you are very successful in blessing us, with your art and beautiful spirit.
P.S. I've been accused of having a few "blonde" moments myself...