Bi-polar Club

#21
I Thought about keeping this to myself because of the stigma attached to mental illness...............:(

But then I thought, why :confused:

I see evil flaunting it ugly head everywhere I go in this city...

same same same~ glad you set up this club!
anyways,the med I took made me dizzy at times,otherwise I'm fine.I suppose.I don't get much sleep not cause of the medicine,but more so because I am afraid that if I sleep,I may not wake up:eek:

my friend used to coax me into sleeping by telling me that there are many ways to die..and it's more peaceful to die in one's sleep..then she'll sing a random song.. & now she's dead.Suicide.Ironic?
 
#22
same same same~ glad you set up this club!
anyways,the med I took made me dizzy at times,otherwise I'm fine.I suppose.I don't get much sleep not cause of the medicine,but more so because I am afraid that if I sleep,I may not wake up:eek:

my friend used to coax me into sleeping by telling me that there are many ways to die..and it's more peaceful to die in one's sleep..then she'll sing a random song.. & now she's dead.Suicide.Ironic?
Yes, very ironic...

The Lord has known us since ........

Psalm 139


1 O Lord, you have examined my heart
and know everything about me.
2 You know when I sit down or stand up.
You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.
3 You see me when I travel
and when I rest at home.
You know everything I do.
4 You know what I am going to say
even before I say it, Lord.
5 You go before me and follow me.
You place your hand of blessing on my head.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too great for me to understand!

7 I can never escape from your Spirit!
I can never get away from your presence!
8 If I go up to heaven, you are there;
if I go down to the grave,[a] you are there.
9 If I ride the wings of the morning,
if I dwell by the farthest oceans,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
and your strength will support me.
11 I could ask the darkness to hide me
and the light around me to become night—
12 but even in darkness I cannot hide from you.
To you the night shines as bright as day.
Darkness and light are the same to you.

13 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.

15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
16 You saw me before I was born.

Every day of my life was recorded in your book.

Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed.
17 How precious are your thoughts about me,[b] O God.
They cannot be numbered!
18 I can’t even count them;
they outnumber the grains of sand!
And when I wake up,
you are still with me!
19 O God, if only you would destroy the wicked!
Get out of my life, you murderers!
20 They blaspheme you;
your enemies misuse your name.
21 O Lord, shouldn’t I hate those who hate you?
Shouldn’t I despise those who oppose you?
22 Yes, I hate them with total hatred,
for your enemies are my enemies. 23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 Point out anything in me that offends you,
and lead me along the path of everlasting life.
 
#23
There are many ways to live 4given... All of them right if they are of the Lords Will...

This fear of dying in your sleep will one day pass...

:groupray:
 
#24
Don't Be Ashamed Or Stigmatized If Your Family

Though I have said this before it's repeated for the Newbies...

Mental illness runs in my family, on both sides...

5 suicides in the last 100 years on my mothers side...

DON'T BE ASHAMED OR STIGMATIZED IF YOUR FAMILY TREE HAS THIS
 
#25
There are many ways to live 4given... All of them right if they are of the Lords Will...

This fear of dying in your sleep will one day pass...

:groupray:

one day I hope he'll turn my nightmares into dreams,phobia into reality.


no one in my family ever had anythin remotely got to do with depression/ experienced suicide of someone close.I am the freak in the family.
 
#26
one day I hope he'll turn my nightmares into dreams,phobia into reality.


no one in my family ever had anythin remotely got to do with depression/ experienced suicide of someone close.I am the freak in the family.
You may not have a family tree of depression...

Some people cover up their depression with drugs and alcohol to cope...

Some never mention it because of the stigma... the closet syndrome...

I'll say it again ...I am so proud of you for coming out at least on-line...

Depending on circumstance I recommend people consider the ramifications on family, friends co-workers...

But here CFS we can be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
 
#27
I felt like a black sheep when I was young...

I came from a divorce mother which in my culture was un-heard of...

People avoided my mother and me...

I was told I would give a puppy cooties, that I wanted to pet by some of the kids...

I felt like a freak too!

Then I was taller than anyone in my class, and looked much older as well... Then I got this Jewish nose and had to wear glasses... I wanted to hide...

You won't always feel that way............ Child of the Most High God:D
 
#33
I dont really have a family. )l:
You could say that about me. It just my mom, my husband, my pets... I do get along with my beloved mother-in-law... And I do have friends though...

But no brothers and sisters except for my Christian ones...

ANd I am so blessed to have them all here on the forum and at church...

Christ said:

  1. Matthew 12:46
    [ Jesus’ Mother and Brothers Send for Him ] While He was still talking to the multitudes, behold, His mother and brothers stood outside, seeking to speak with Him.
    Then one said to Him, “Look, Your mother and Your brothers are standing outside, seeking to speak with You.”

  2. Matthew 12:48
    But He answered and said to the one who told Him, “Who is My mother and who are My brothers?”

  3. Matthew 12:49
    And He stretched out His hand toward His disciples and said, “Here are My mother and My brothers!

  4. Matthew 12:50
    For whoever does the will of My Father in heaven is My brother and sister and mother.”
 
#35
Hello all--I was reading this discussion, and I am so glad I found it. I too suffer from Bi-polar disorder and I have experienced many of the feelings and thoughts that you are all describing. I look forward to being a member of your "club" and sharing insights and thoughts with all. :groupray:
 
#36
Hello all--I was reading this discussion, and I am so glad I found it. I too suffer from Bi-polar disorder and I have experienced many of the feelings and thoughts that you are all describing. I look forward to being a member of your "club" and sharing insights and thoughts with all. :groupray:
Faithful, thank you so much for joining... Each person that is real about this, will inspire, give hope and make the others realize they are
not alone...:D

Please share:israel:

angela
 
#37
I too have bipolar mania and take my drugs the way I should but I still have a hard time controling the mood swings. I also get very angry at the drop of a hat. All I ask is for your prayers as my prayers are with you. Also would like to join your club.
 
#38
Doug, :groupray: many blessings for you... Thank You for joining... All the men the Father worked through in the Bible, had personality weaknesses...

I just prayed for you :groupray:
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About tempers, I have 2 friends with explosive outbursts as you say at the drop of a hat... They are both very lonely...

Are any of us in this group lonely?

:(
 
#39
My hubby has an explosive temper, at the drop of a hat... Our couselor said he was a very angry person...

Hubby was abused in different ways as a child...

I'm not a physc... Just notice friends who were abused as children have either bad tempers or are very, very passive...like little mice...

2 ExTrEmEs... No balance...

But I know there are other reasons, as well...

If I felt I needed further help, I would ask my Pastor for help in selecting a Christian Couselor...

If I didn't attend Church I would call a really big church in my area... They will have resources avaliable...

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'Be kinder than necessary , for everyone you meet
Is fighting some kind of Battle'
 
#40
From the link on page 1...
The disorder is also found in a large number of people involved in the arts. It is an ongoing study as to why many creative geniuses had bipolar disorder.
In my personal opinion, this question is backwards. Perhaps it is not that many creative people have bipolar disorders, rather that bipolar conditions cause many people to seek (creative) emotional outlets.

To me, music is like opening a stress relief valve. You can tell my mood at any given time by the music I'm playing or listening to. But that's just about the only way I have ever learned how to relieve emotions that I'm struggling with.