ex-Satanist back in the flock

ex-Satanist back in the flock

Hello everyone…

I’m an ex-Satanist who recently had a profound faith experience and have since renounced my belief that I am my own God. I was touched in a dream and have decided to reach out to others through the relative safety of the internet. I’m in the process of rebuilding my faith and my relationship with God and I’m hoping that with reflection, prayer, and this community, I can begin the long journey back into God’s grace. I’m glad to be here, and hope I am welcome.


Pastor Gary

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Welcome and we are glad that you found our 'family' here. Your revelation is not unique, for it happens many countless times each day. God's power is infinite and His plan for each of us comes about in His own time and in His own way. We just have to be savvy enough to recognize His help and to join with Him and His son, Jesus Christ, on the path to salvation and His Kingdom. The path can be dark and filled with potholes and boulders, but as we accept God and Christ, His Light shines within us and His Light illuminates that path and we begin to clearly see what is ahead.

Blessings to you...


Waslost all heaven is throwing a party over you now:

Luk 15:7 I say unto you, that likewise joy shall be in heaven over one sinner that repenteth, more than over ninety and nine just persons, which need no repentance.
I'm telling you brother the Father, Son and Holy Ghost have been having meetings, making plans and preparing a celebration over the return of thier lost son. I cannot tell you the joy this is bringing my heart, I am really excited over your decision and I can't wait to see what the Lord is going to do in your life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes, welcome! :)

One question: What do you mean by back in the flock?
Were you in the flock one time before?? :confused:
I was baptized Christian, and practiced my faith and religion as a Christian until my early 20's. It was through my studies of world religion, history, the supernatural, and eventually the occult that led me to the specific sect of Satanism I practiced with.

I was baptized Christian, and practiced my faith and religion as a Christian until my early 20's.
Well, praise God you'r back, there was a seed planted earlier in your life and Jesus kept an eye on you while you were in darkness.:)
Abandoned and Forsaken

I have decided to leve this forum as well as my faith. Those of you who have been with me on my journey over the past several months know that my conversion to Christianity has cost me my friends and my marriage. I'm also in the middle of filing for bankruptcy and have had employment problems.

These tribulations have finally taken their toll on me. I have sought solace in hospitalization, therapy, and recently with a local church. None of which have helped me. Furthermore, God has stopped speaking to me...I have not felt his presence in several months despite my overwhelming experience and subsequent salvation. I feel that just as strikingly as my salvation, I have been forsaken. Everything has been taken from me since my rejection of Satanism and acceptance of Jesus Christ.

I have no more strength or faith. I am alone and must rely on myself to rebuild my life. I appreciate everyone here for offering their support and kindness through these last months, but it has become to much. Why would God save me only to strip me of everything dear to me in my life? I am destroyed and defeated.

I envy you all and your faith. I envy your status as God's chosen few. Clearly, he has no interest in me other than to show me the folly of my ways.

Kent (WasLost)
Kent, don't you understand?
You turned your back on satan for one who is greater and you angered him (satan).

He wants you to think you have lost everything and in fact it may seem you have for now.

Don't you know satan wants you to regret giving your life to the Lord and when you turn your back on God, satan will laugh in your face, and you think you have lost it all now?
Wait and see what you really can lose.

You did well and you made the right choice and there can be no other masters before God.

With faith and patience the life you feel you lost would have become a life full of joy you can't imagine right now.

I pray you don't do this and go back on God.
You can't believe it's the right thing to do, deep in your heart.

By going back to where you were I fear your life will have far more sorrow than you believe it has now.

Please think and pray about this.
Don't trust the one who lies and decieves.
I'll be praying for you.

Love, a sister in Christ


Brother I am praying God will open your eyes- all the powers of hell are arrayed against you to bring you to this place- if you choose to draw near to God He WILL DELIVER YOU- please hang on- don't give up- I love you in Jesus Name and I don't want to see this happen to you- Larry
Waslost. I am praying for you now. The devil wants you back, but God will never give you more than you and He can't handle together. I know things seem bad now, but with the Lord and prayer on your side you will get through this. The Lord has already won the battle for you. Please accept that and believe in him.
I'm not sure if you have children or not, but could you ever imagine turning your back on your child if he did wrong? How could God who is perfect ever turn his back on one of his child for choosing the wrong path for a while. I will keep praying for you that you can fully understand God's love for you and get through this hard time in your life. Heaven is going to be perfect for eternity. I pray that you will be there to experience that with us.

I like yourself at one time lost everything I had, right at the top of my game with nothing in the world I could possibly want or need, at 38 I had a heart attack. It took everything, jobs, money, friends, house, cars. for the first time in my life I knew the meaning of the word FEAR this is where sata- wants you, hiding in the shadow of fear. I know it's hard not to look at what seems to be crumbling down around you, I have been there too. I know that my Lord Jesus has been at the very center of every storm I have walked through, and every storm has brought me closer to the foundation I was to build on. Hold on to God He is the foundation that never fails. you are in our prayers
I appreciate everyone's private messages and personal emails regarding my situation. I still feel completely abandoned and alone, but all I can do is keep living in hopes that I can rebuild my life.
I appreciate everyone's private messages and personal emails regarding my situation. I still feel completely abandoned and alone, but all I can do is keep living in hopes that I can rebuild my life.
Hope is all you need man!

Job 11:18 - You will be secure, because there is hope; you will look about you and take your rest in safety.

I will keep praying for God to help you. Just remember man, Satan you can fight, you can't fight God. Satan will TRY to drag you down. I say TRY because he may succeed in some aspects, but the Lord will conquer in every aspect.
good news for everyone .satan casts a bad view on christians.our brother has come back ,just like me lost but was found.now your back and willing to stay in sunshine,nobody can keep you from God.:israel:
I'm so glad you're back! God will not forsake you as easily as you think. Your life will change, don't give up until you reach that turning point, brother. I will pray for you.