Mary, the Lord sometimes brings us to our knees, in love for us and for our spiritual well-being.
It isn't easy; it's a struggle, but continual prayer and humble submission to whatever he desires is the beginning of peace.
"The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding." (Proverbs 9:10 NIV)
He must break us. The old Adam; the sinful nature must be, as Larry says: killed off, in order for the new person, in Christ, to shine. However, the old person must be killed off daily because it is a tenacious rascal.
We cannot have things our way. Our way leads to death but the Lords way is life and peace and salvation. We all must humbly submit to God in all things and not think we know better than God.
We cannot think to ourselves, "this or that is foolish that the Lord is wanting of me." He knows better than we do and we dare not let our ego or pride get in the way of living a Christian life. We cannot say, "Well, the Lord wants me to obey this or that rule but, why? It's only a small thing and I don't see how it can hurt to disobey it."
Here's a classic example of how the Lord deals with our human nature:
This is a very clear and defining story of how our savior humbles us for our good. -
(2 Kings 5: 1-14 NIV)
Now Naaman was commander of the army of the king of Aram. He was a great man in the sight of his master and highly regarded, because through him the LORD had given victory to Aram. He was a valiant soldier, but he had leprosy. Now bands from Aram had gone out and had taken captive a young girl from Israel, and she served Naaman's wife. She said to her mistress, "If only my master would see the prophet who is in Samaria! He would cure him of his leprosy."
Naaman went to his master and told him what the girl from Israel had said. "By all means, go," the king of Aram replied. "I will send a letter to the king of Israel." So Naaman left, taking with him ten talents of silver, six thousand shekels of gold and ten sets of clothing. The letter that he took to the king of Israel read: "With this letter I am sending my servant Naaman to you so that you may cure him of his leprosy."
As soon as the king of Israel read the letter, he tore his robes and said, "Am I God? Can I kill and bring back to life? Why does this fellow send someone to me to be cured of his leprosy? See how he is trying to pick a quarrel with me!"
When Elisha the man of God heard that the king of Israel had torn his robes, he sent him this message: "Why have you torn your robes? Have the man come to me and he will know that there is a prophet in Israel." So Naaman went with his horses and chariots and stopped at the door of Elisha's house. Elisha sent a messenger to say to him, "Go, wash yourself seven times in the Jordan, and your flesh will be restored and you will be cleansed."
But Naaman went away angry and said, "I thought that he would surely come out to me and stand and call on the name of the LORD his God, wave his hand over the spot and cure me of my leprosy. Are not Abana and Pharpar, the rivers of Damascus, better than any of the waters of Israel? Couldn't I wash in them and be cleansed?" So he turned and went off in a rage.
Naaman's servants went to him and said, "My father, if the prophet had told you to do some great thing, would you not have done it? How much more, then, when he tells you, 'Wash and be cleansed'!" So he went down and dipped himself in the Jordan seven times, as the man of God had told him, and his flesh was restored and became clean like that of a young boy.