I hate to admit this...

But I feel really jealous of people who are able to receive dreams and visions from God and prophecy....they get to have God with them every step of the way and then theres people like me who are kinda left to their own resources..who dont hear God ,feel him or anything like that.

It makes me feel like something is wrong with me as a Christian or if I didnt go through enough trauma or whatever to be privilege enough to talk to God as intimately as some do...because when I see people who operate in those gifts...they usually...or at least in my experience have had a hard life...and I always thougbt that was Gods special way of making it up to them.

But i just thought of this as I was drawing ...and giving my character a similar ability and as I read about peoples awesome experience...it just makes me wonder that.

Like I just wonder why it seems some people are kept at an arms length from God and others are able to be in his bosom.

It makes me feel like..maybe because I didnt have abusive parents,been mistreated physically,sexually or whatever... I dont live in a third world country,I eat everyday and I work..and have a car... Maybe Ive been blessed enough already... You know ...and maybe god doesnt need to talk to me like he does with others...because I have tried but I get tired of hearing silence

I'm not mad at God...I'm greatful for the normal life I have...I was just wondering that. Is all
 

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But I feel really jealous of people who are able to receive dreams and visions from God and prophecy..
Most don't Autumn. Many just think they are.

Like I just wonder why it seems some people are kept at an arms length from God and others are able to be in his bosom.
God is no respector of persons so All can get as close as they want. It's not ever God holding one back

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Don't compare how the Lord works with and through you to how he appears to work with and through others.

Many wish to be Lions of God, showing His power all around. The Lord much more needs everyday people trusting Him and growing in Him in the many little things.

You will always be more aware of the details in your life than you are those of others. Rejoice in the victories you see others have, Learn to be edified by their faith and experiences without having to attempt to duplicate their life. You cannot perform their service in Gods plan, but they also cannot perform your service for the Lord.

Build yourself up with prayer, Bible study, fellowship. As you learn new truths, look for ways to put them into action in small ways. Eventually those small steps will strengthen you in the Lord, and you will be used for greater things.

You are unique. The Lord's relationship to you is a one-of-a-kind love relationship, not another copy of some vague love of everyone in general.
 
Don't compare how the Lord works with and through you to how he appears to work with and through others.

Many wish to be Lions of God, showing His power all around. The Lord much more needs everyday people trusting Him and growing in Him in the many little things.

You will always be more aware of the details in your life than you are those of others. Rejoice in the victories you see others have, Learn to be edified by their faith and experiences without having to attempt to duplicate their life. You cannot perform their service in Gods plan, but they also cannot perform your service for the Lord.

Build yourself up with prayer, Bible study, fellowship. As you learn new truths, look for ways to put them into action in small ways. Eventually those small steps will strengthen you in the Lord, and you will be used for greater things.

You are unique. The Lord's relationship to you is a one-of-a-kind love relationship, not another copy of some vague love of everyone in general.
I totally agree with . I was just telling a friend this...that our relationship with the lord is one of a kind ..youre definitely right. Thank you for the reminder.
 
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Dreams are a result of not listening to the Lord during the day.

Job 33:13-18 (KJV)
Why dost thou strive against him? for he giveth not account of any of his matters.For God speaketh once, yea twice, yet man perceiveth it not.In a dream, in a vision of the night, when deep sleep falleth upon men, in slumberings upon the bed;Then he openeth the ears of men, and sealeth their instruction,That he may withdraw man from his purpose, and hide pride from man.He keepeth back his soul from the pit, and his life from perishing by the sword.​
 
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It makes me feel like something is wrong with me as a Christian or if I didnt go through enough trauma or whatever to be privilege enough to talk to God as intimately as some do...because when I see people who operate in those gifts...they usually...or at least in my experience have had a hard life...and I always thougbt that was Gods special way of making it up to them.
I don't want to hijack Autumn's post, but it brings to mind something from my early years in the Lord.

I grew up in a quiet neighborhood, never getting into much trouble, at least anything that would result in a police record. I led a pleasantly uneventful life with not too much in the way of major sin, at least from the perspective of man. Its kind of different from the Lord's perspective. Actually, I kind of wanted to experiment with substances and with girls, but in my early teens, I really did not know how. Thank the Lord for my ignorance!

When I accepted the Lord and began attending church, I started going to some of the youth oriented events. Many of times the speaker would be someone who the Lord had brought back from a life of BIG SIN. I remember that Teen Challenge was active in the area, and there were many speakers attesting to the Lord helping them away from drugs. Praise the Lord without ceasing!

I kind of got the feeling that my puny sins were nothing in comparison to those in the testimonies I was hearing. I kind of started to feel that my story wasn't strong enough to be useful in winning people to the Lord. And I am often a quiet kind of guy and in person often have trouble making myself understood. When I get excited my mind races faster than my tongue and I start stammering. The enemy uses such things to hinder new Christians.

But I had a strong church guiding me, and a strong christian family that took me under their wing. By the time I was in college, I was helping teach 5th grade Sunday school.

The thing is, as I began to look around me and look for opportunities, there were many where I could say a word or two and declare myself for the Lord, and become a witness. They weren't usually long and involved, but sometimes they were.

I can remember in college discussing 'The Last Temptation of Christ' in class, and the Professor stopped me and said "The Trinity is coming out of your mouth!". I had neither intended to speak so forcefully then, nor did I realize that I was being a witness for the Lord, but I do believe that the spirit was speaking through me.

The point is, being used by the Lord is different for everyone. When Paul wrote to the Corinthians "Be imitators of me, just as I also am of Christ" (1 Cor 11:1), he was not exhorting them to travel around ministering to the early church, but to imitate his devotion to Christ, knowing that what they do by imitation will become part of their being, and no longer an imitation.
 

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But I feel really jealous of people who are able to receive dreams and visions from God and prophecy....they get to have God with them every step of the way and then theres people like me who are kinda left to their own resources..who dont hear God ,feel him or anything like that.

It makes me feel like something is wrong with me as a Christian or if I didnt go through enough trauma or whatever to be privilege enough to talk to God as intimately as some do...because when I see people who operate in those gifts...they usually...or at least in my experience have had a hard life...and I always thougbt that was Gods special way of making it up to them.

But i just thought of this as I was drawing ...and giving my character a similar ability and as I read about peoples awesome experience...it just makes me wonder that.

Like I just wonder why it seems some people are kept at an arms length from God and others are able to be in his bosom.

It makes me feel like..maybe because I didnt have abusive parents,been mistreated physically,sexually or whatever... I dont live in a third world country,I eat everyday and I work..and have a car... Maybe Ive been blessed enough already... You know ...and maybe god doesnt need to talk to me like he does with others...because I have tried but I get tired of hearing silence

I'm not mad at God...I'm greatful for the normal life I have...I was just wondering that. Is all
There was a time when I would wonder why others were blessed more than me or why God seemed to answer other peoples prayers more than he answered mine. I prayed for something for 28 years and I just received the answer 2 years ago. I thought something was wrong with me. God's timing will always be perfect for us, for Him and for the Kingdom of God. You cannot rush God and His plans, nor do you want to. Looking back over all those years I was right where God needed me to be and it was a good thing even though it was painful. It was where I needed to be.

Surrendering to God and accepting what He says at the time can be so crucial to us and can release so many blessings into our lives. You are not being kept at arms length from God. That is the enemy of this world whispering into your ear. You need to discern what you are hearing. If it does not line up with God, then you know it's from the enemy and you then need to let that go and not entertain it any further. Start rejoicing with God and thanking him. Get deeper into God's Word and surround yourself with Godly people who can help mentor you and build your faith. Then learn to listen as you pray. We have to be still and quiet in order to hear. Be still and quiet before the Lord and hear what he has to say to you. It may be hard at first and take practice, but it does work. God is near to you and he will speak to you. The bible tells us that God is near so you never need to question that again. He tells us he wants to have a relationship with us so you never need to wonder where he is. He is with you.
 
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I always wanted to be someone else as I never thought I was enough. It’s pretty common tactic used by satan.
Reading scriptures of the heroes just made me feel even more boring in comparison.
But now I have God’s Word I can fight the enemy all the way which tells me this and it puts a stopper in his chocolates:)
 

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I always wanted to be someone else as I never thought I was enough. It’s pretty common tactic used by satan.
Reading scriptures of the heroes just made me feel even more boring in comparison.
But now I have God’s Word I can fight the enemy all the way which tells me this and it puts a stopper in his chocolates:)
Amen and then again, think of who you will be once you are even more of who God Created you to be.
Now that's just Amazing to say the least.
Blessings
FCJ
 

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I always wanted to be someone else as I never thought I was enough. It’s pretty common tactic used by satan.
Reading scriptures of the heroes just made me feel even more boring in comparison.
But now I have God’s Word I can fight the enemy all the way which tells me this and it puts a stopper in his chocolates:)
Amen! Let Fathers Word be a mirror to who you are in Christ... so that you can see you as He sees you :)
 
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But I feel really jealous of people who are able to receive dreams and visions from God and prophecy....they get to have God with them every step of the way and then theres people like me who are kinda left to their own resources..who dont hear God ,feel him or anything like that.

It makes me feel like something is wrong with me as a Christian or if I didnt go through enough trauma or whatever to be privilege enough to talk to God as intimately as some do...because when I see people who operate in those gifts...they usually...or at least in my experience have had a hard life...and I always thougbt that was Gods special way of making it up to them.

But i just thought of this as I was drawing ...and giving my character a similar ability and as I read about peoples awesome experience...it just makes me wonder that.

Like I just wonder why it seems some people are kept at an arms length from God and others are able to be in his bosom.

It makes me feel like..maybe because I didnt have abusive parents,been mistreated physically,sexually or whatever... I dont live in a third world country,I eat everyday and I work..and have a car... Maybe Ive been blessed enough already... You know ...and maybe god doesnt need to talk to me like he does with others...because I have tried but I get tired of hearing silence

I'm not mad at God...I'm greatful for the normal life I have...I was just wondering that. Is all
I think most of us can relate.
But we also know that gifts and callings are without repentance so if someone has a gift it doesn't mean they have a hot spot with God.
Balaam being the classic example.
Although there are those that God chooses to use for His extraordinary service and true enough that the required character does not come cheap.
But God is also involved in all His children's lives and we don't often see it because we try to put a handle on it and we know we can't understand God, although on the other side it will be clear and we will be able to worship Him like only the redeemed can.
Until then the bench mark is 'believe' FAITH and we shall not be disappointed.
 

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Amen 2404 ,
We All have a calling or Jobs to do that God has given unto each and everyone of us.

We get into trouble when we judge the importance or worthiness of our calling or jobs by our standards against others.

Now then God has a Different View on them. Each and everyone are just as vital and important as the other Unto Him.

In fact they are so Important unto Him that He chose who He knew could get it done as He desires. Your calling or Jobs are to be done by You because you are the one who can get them done.

Another Problem is those who won't do them because they were not good or big enough .
God Will Still get them done even if He has to get others to do your work to.

I don't know about any of you, but I don't want to stand before the Father and hear Him ask why we Did Not Fulfill our Assignment and why others had to do our work too?!!

No! What ever it may be, I pray I get it done.

Merry Christmas
Blessings
FCJ
 
Amen 2404 ,
We All have a calling or Jobs to do that God has given unto each and everyone of us.

We get into trouble when we judge the importance or worthiness of our calling or jobs by our standards against others.

Now then God has a Different View on them. Each and everyone are just as vital and important as the other Unto Him.

In fact they are so Important unto Him that He chose who He knew could get it done as He desires. Your calling or Jobs are to be done by You because you are the one who can get them done.

Another Problem is those who won't do them because they were not good or big enough .
God Will Still get them done even if He has to get others to do your work to.

I don't know about any of you, but I don't want to stand before the Father and hear Him ask why we Did Not Fulfill our Assignment and why others had to do our work too?!!

No! What ever it may be, I pray I get it done.

Merry Christmas
Blessings
FCJ
I feel as though I have no real assignment and I can see why. I'm not the strongest or smartest person there is...or capable so it would be a bad choice to use me for anything. I think I'm just supposed to just be saved and thats it....theres nothing else for me to do.
 

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I feel as though I have no real assignment and I can see why. I'm not the strongest or smartest person there is...or capable so it would be a bad choice to use me for anything. I think I'm just supposed to just be saved and thats it....theres nothing else for me to do.
I find you to be rather inspiring... you may not see it in yourself, but it shows to others.
 

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I feel as though I have no real assignment and I can see why. I'm not the strongest or smartest person there is...or capable so it would be a bad choice to use me for anything. I think I'm just supposed to just be saved and thats it....theres nothing else for me to do.
Hi Autumn,
Now we are made known what the devil wants you to believe.
What has God said in His Word?
I mean Jesus Made you Autumn Worthy so.......who do you choose to believe?
Merry Christmas
FCJ
 

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I feel as though I have no real assignment and I can see why. I'm not the strongest or smartest person there is...or capable so it would be a bad choice to use me for anything. I think I'm just supposed to just be saved and thats it....theres nothing else for me to do.
Sometimes I feel that way too... but then I just ask God what my purpose is and He shows me.

You have a very kind and generous heart, and are always there to help a friend.... that's God's purpose girl :) 2 Corinthians 1:4 has your Name all over it. :)
 
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Don't be jealous of the visions were from God Christianity would know what was going on as per Revelation 1:1. As Paul said you gotta test the claim then you see many of these are of the psychoactive and demonic nature, because Satan's number 1 lurking place is at church when he can get into the leadership. Then he just runs them in circles, moving much, very busy, but overall getting nowhere as Christianity has done since the Reformation.
 
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Well if it’s any consolation autumn...
I have never had a calling that I can shout about from the rooftops. no Doctor of philosophy or rocket scientist here...

But I can make pretty good cakes.
And who doesn’t like cakes?
What I’m saying is, if i enjoy what I do and it’s morally sound, then God musta put it on myheart

Happy new year and God Bless
X
 

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Well if it’s any consolation autumn...
I have never had a calling that I can shout about from the rooftops. no Doctor of philosophy or rocket scientist here...

But I can make pretty good cakes.
And who doesn’t like cakes?
What I’m saying is, if i enjoy what I do and it’s morally sound, then God musta put it on myheart

Happy new year and God Bless
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I like creating cakes too. Lol
I try to follow a basic recipe and then I like to start creating and trying new things and techniques. It's fun. I love cooking and creating new recipes.
I never thought of God putting that in me buy I guess he did. It calms me down and makes me happy being in the kitchen. I love food.....lol