I'm New: Introduction

Hello fellow Christian brothers and sisters,
I'm new to this forum and I'd thought I'd introduce myself to all of you. I am a very skeptic Christian with constant doubt as to why God has created things the way he has. God is great but there are times when my faith takes a backseat and I start doubting if God really cares about me. I know this is very bad and shows that I need to strengthen my faith more by learning from his word and seeking other brothers/sisters' advice.

I came on here because off-late, I've been struggling more and more with my Body Dysmorphic Disorder. I constantly find flaws in my physical appearance and can't help feeling sorry for myself. I know this sounds very selfish and narcissistic but I don't want to be this way. I'm also struggling with my addiction to pornography (which most probably has become a way to deal with all the depression and anxiety I deal with in a day-to-day basis.) There are times when I wonder, why I had to be afflicted with BDS. It's a never ending torture. I pray every night hoping that the next day will get better but my subconscious sure does a great job reinforcing my flaws every day. It's a vicious cycle really. Various insecurities creep up, I feel sad and depressed, watch porn, masturbate, feel even worse, repeat the same process.
Well welcome to the club; transparency is a good thing-but sometimes we reveal to much about about our selves. We don't necessarily need to reveal all of sin to the whole world. That being said-we have very much in common- nuff said.

I didn't grow up in a 'Christian' home/ environment and have only really been (attempting) to walk with the Lord for the last two years. After I got saved in 2005, I peaked and fizzled-made a mess of my family relations because I was full of 'Hell fire & Brimstone' novice preaching. I burnt out and did a whole lot of backsliding. Thankfully I have a wonderful Pastor and Church that are Bible centered.

The first thing that really made me wonder about life in general was 'why?' Why all this mess. When I heard that our purpose according to the Bible is to Glorify God, it was a thorn in the side of my secular education being bombarded by evolutionary theory at every turn. Whatever the 'world' says or does; usually God's position is the opposite-especially when it comes to truly understanding God Himself.

When I actually 'heard' the Gospel message; I knew something was different from all the things I thought I knew about God at the age of 30. I accepted.

...God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth. So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them... And God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good. And the evening and the morning were the sixth day.

Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God....Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God. That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. And this is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved. But he that doeth truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God.

This is my commandment, That ye love one another, as I have loved you.Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.

Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat: Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.

I am the way, the truth and the life.

Jesus the Christ-Son of the Living God

The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you all.For all have sinned and come short of the glory of God.
For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.
But God commandeth His love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.
For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.

With Love,
Paul-Apostle to the Gentiles
I understand. I am new to christianity as well and i am skeptic on some points, but Jesus' words are very powerful and it truly must come from a true source. I don't think every christian interpret him correctly, but i have faith that i will know exactly what Jesus said.