My name is Brenda and I am new here and not sure what to say. I have lost my faith and am so scared. I feel like God hates me for something. Last year I had nothing but bad luck. Lost my dad and best-friend (my cat-I know many will make fun of this). I had him for 17 years 6 months 12 days, since the day he was born. I lost him exactly 30 days after my dad, who was the world to me. I lost my mom 10 years-ago. I have lost my only income-due to no fault of my own-layoff. I am down to my last few dollars and have tried so many things to bring in an income and nothing is working. I cry myself to sleep just praying and praying every night, and am just hopeless. I am about to lose my car, home and everything. I have prayed and prayed for some type of financial blessing, but it seems everything is against me. I just do not know what to do anymore. I have looked to Him for help and guidance and so far I just feel I did something so sinful, that God has given up on me-and who can blame Him. I am just at such a loss. I feel that I am losing my faith and trust in Him and that does scare me. I just wish He would give me some kind of light to make me a little hopeful at life. Sorry for the rant....