Can be a difficult path for us and I struggle and often can feel rejected and yep have cursed at God and may yet one day be asking the same as you again...
Best remedies I know are a song I've given many times for various reasons:
And the blessings
Blessed are you who are poor, for yours is the kingdom of God
Blessed are you who hunger now, for you will be satisfied
Blessed are you who weep now, for you will laugh.
Blessed are you when people hate you, when they exclude you and reject your name as evil, because of the Son of Man.
Rejoice in that day and leap for joy, because great is your reward in heaven. For that is how their ancestors treated the prophets.