SOMEONE HELP. Strong advice needed if possible

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ashchey

I had a very traumatic, hallucinogenic trip on marijuana back in Sept 2019 (which I think was laced as well). From then I started getting away from it. October 2019, I cried out to Jesus in a dressing room and asked him to use me a vessel to further his kingdom (ultimately asking to do God’s will).

Some time later, I have had moments when I thought Jesus was moving my mouth to talk to me and my mom immediately told me that that’s not biblically ok and that the devil disguises himself as an angel of light. For the past few months, my mouth still tries to move to talk to me and relay “messages”, and I KNOW that this isn’t ok.

Lately I have been feeling more and more physically numb because the devil is trying to convince me that I belong to him and not Jesus. That when I cried out to Jesus, I cried out to a false Christ like what Jesus talked about in the Bible and that I’m worshipping the Antichrist.

The thing is: I know that Jesus only came for sinners, I know we must follow him in his statues, I know that you’re only saved through grace, not works, and that I have to repent and believe. I have repented in October (and continually do so) and my biggest idol, being sexual immorality and many other sins I held on to, “disappeared”.

My worry keeps bringing me back that I committed the unpardonable sin because every time I cry out for salvation, I keep having the same physical things (mouth moving, body moving uncontrollably, hearing things, feeling like I’m being controlled). I keep asking God to forgive me in Jesus name for things I’ve done and to fill me with the Holy Spirit since I can’t be manipulated by the devil if I’m in Him, which is another reason I keep feeling like I’m not saved.

He also wants me to think

Please, if anyone has had any similar experiences or has advice, that will deeply appreciated.
 
God cares about you and has everything in hand. Please allow me to encourage you to see this as quite possibly a mental health problem, especially seeing that you had those previous experiences with marijuana, which I know can lead to psychosis. I have experience with this issue, so please let me help you see that it may not be the devil at all. It may be that your brain chemistry has been affected by the drugs, and if you see a doctor they will be able to work out what it is and give you the medical help you need.

I know that what you are experiencing can seem like it is spiritual, when in fact it isn't. What you are going through sounds very like psychosis. Why don't you tell a doctor what is happening and let them help you. I went through what you are going through, and the answer was not about faith but about medicine. Now I am on the treatment, those symptoms can't confuse and harm me any longer. It is going to be ok. And you haven't committed the unpardonable sin. And the moment you cried out to God, He did save you. He cares about everyone who needs His help. Our brain, when it is unwell, can be convinced of things that aren't true, and we can sense things happening to us, or about our world, that aren't real. It is very convincing, but not the truth at all. Treatment will restore your understanding of reality. Please let your mother read this message, and let her help you get the treatment you need.
 
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God cares about you and has everything in hand. Please allow me to encourage you to see this as quite possibly a mental health problem, especially seeing that you had those previous experiences with marijuana, which I know can lead to psychosis. I have experience with this issue, so please let me help you see that it may not be the devil at all. It may be that your brain chemistry has been affected by the drugs, and if you see a doctor they will be able to work out what it is and give you the medical help you need.

I know that what you are experiencing can seem like it is spiritual, when in fact it isn't. What you are going through sounds very like psychosis. Why don't you tell a doctor what is happening and let them help you. I went through what you are going through, and the answer was not about faith but about medicine. Now I am on the treatment, those symptoms can't confuse and harm me any longer. It is going to be ok. And you haven't committed the unpardonable sin. And the moment you cried out to God, He did save you. He cares about everyone who needs His help. Our brain, when it is unwell, can be convinced of things that aren't true, and we can sense things happening to us, or about our world, that aren't real. It is very convincing, but not the truth at all. Treatment will restore your understanding of reality. Please let your mother read this message, and let her help you get the treatment you need.
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Thank you for the reply, I appreciate it. I did drugs for less than a year and before that trip, I was perfectly fine. I personally don’t think it’s psychosis because I capable of functioning to an extent, even with the anxiety. My mom is well aware of all these things, thank you! I wouldn’t have nearly as much encouragement if I didn’t have her so thank you for that advice.

But I admit, I do have immense anxiety and I’m asking God to help me with it. If you have any biblical advice as well, please let me know. This is deeply appreciated!!!!
 
ashchey said:
Thank you for the reply, I appreciate it. I did drugs for less than a year and before that trip, I was perfectly fine. I personally don’t think it’s psychosis because I capable of functioning to an extent, even with the anxiety. My mom is well aware of all these things, thank you! I wouldn’t have nearly as much encouragement if I didn’t have her so thank you for that advice.

But I admit, I do have immense anxiety and I’m asking God to help me with it. If you have any biblical advice as well, please let me know. This is deeply appreciated!!!!
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Ashchey, you are a young woman with your entire life ahead of you. On occasions, we trip and fall early on in the race. However, you can stand back up, lead forward, and continue the race. Anxiety is a hard issue to deal with on your own. I would suggest talking to a professional to see how best to deal with that. In the interim, here you go:

For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control. (2 Timothy 1:7)

Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Thee, because he trusteth in Thee (Isaiah 26:3).

Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand (Isaiah 41:10).

Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid or tremble at them, for the LORD your God is the only one who goes with you. He will not fail you or forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6).

Behold, God is my salvation, I will trust and not be afraid; for the LORD God is my strength and song, and He has become my salvation (Isaiah 12:2).

The LORD is for me; I will not fear; what can man do to me? (Psalm 118:6).
 
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ashchey said:
I had a very traumatic, hallucinogenic trip on marijuana back in Sept 2019 (which I think was laced as well). From then I started getting away from it. October 2019, I cried out to Jesus in a dressing room and asked him to use me a vessel to further his kingdom (ultimately asking to do God’s will).

Some time later, I have had moments when I thought Jesus was moving my mouth to talk to me and my mom immediately told me that that’s not biblically ok and that the devil disguises himself as an angel of light. For the past few months, my mouth still tries to move to talk to me and relay “messages”, and I KNOW that this isn’t ok.

Lately I have been feeling more and more physically numb because the devil is trying to convince me that I belong to him and not Jesus. That when I cried out to Jesus, I cried out to a false Christ like what Jesus talked about in the Bible and that I’m worshipping the Antichrist.

The thing is: I know that Jesus only came for sinners, I know we must follow him in his statues, I know that you’re only saved through grace, not works, and that I have to repent and believe. I have repented in October (and continually do so) and my biggest idol, being sexual immorality and many other sins I held on to, “disappeared”.

My worry keeps bringing me back that I committed the unpardonable sin because every time I cry out for salvation, I keep having the same physical things (mouth moving, body moving uncontrollably, hearing things, feeling like I’m being controlled). I keep asking God to forgive me in Jesus name for things I’ve done and to fill me with the Holy Spirit since I can’t be manipulated by the devil if I’m in Him, which is another reason I keep feeling like I’m not saved.

He also wants me to think

Please, if anyone has had any similar experiences or has advice, that will deeply appreciated.
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Romans 3:23...………...
"ALL have sinned and come short of the approval of God"

STOP USING MARIJUANA!

Proverbs 20:1 ……….
“Wine is a mocker, strong drink is raging: and whosoever is deceived thereby is not wise.”


Romans 6:16...…..
“Know ye not, that to whom ye yield yourselves servants to obey, his servants ye are to whom ye obey; whether of sin unto death, or of obedience

2 Corinthians 5:17 “Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.”
Read more: https://www.whatchristianswanttoknow.com/15-bible-verses-to-help-with-addiction/#ixzz5lq6pMomb
 
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