Woke up this morning with this phrase spinning round my head

I know I’m forgiven… but

Rereading the bible
How Jesus went to the cross,
How He gave His life for me
Rose again, forgave my sin
But I have this over whelming feeling…
Deep down in my soul,
I know I’m forgiven, but…
How do I forgive my self?


That thought that lingered too long
Before it gets dismissed .
That flash of temper,
That angry retort,
That distracting, resentful feeling that keeps overwhelming
Where love, joy and peace
Should be.
If Father God saved me
Why can’t I forgive myself?

It’s nothing major
Not as if I’ve robbed a bank!
It’s those little things,
Those half truths, that nearly escaped,
Those ‘If Only’s’
Those ‘that should have been me!’
If Father God forgave me
Why can’t I forgive my self?

All this navel gazing
Took my eyes off the truth,
If, Father God loves me
Should I not learn to love myself?
Not as others see me
But just as I am?
Warts and all He made me
In the image Of God,
He knew me, destined me
When I just was…
If Father God loves so loves me
Why can’t I love my self?

Those little ‘life crossroads’
When I wish I’d turned left,
Those prolonged silences
When I know I should have spoken out,
Those denials…
Before the cock crowed thrice,
Being like a bulldog with a wasp ,Instead of letting go and letting God,
A life of full abundance
Is within my grasp
I know Father God is there for me,

but…

Lord, I believe
Help my unbelief
 
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