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Faithwoman I want to say I love you.

Your story and that God's Answers thing helped me like you wouldn't believe just now. I've been praying for the salvation of my family members and friends and I had sins that contributed to how they are lost. I felt sick with guilt. You helped me see Jesus really has died for me. God has forgiven me so that I can forgive myself. And God is always with me.

God really loves us so much and I want you all to know I love you guys as brothers and sisters too. I'm really understanding what that means. I'm in tears of joy. All the pain and agony this life would hold for me is gone!!! There's no love greater! Praise the Lord! I can't believe I was lost for so long, and HE was offering me THIS! I want all to see Him!

God Bless you all!

Mark
 
Wow, my dear one, I can tell you that it's a very brave thing to share so much of your life like this - including your sin - for all to read. Some would even say this is not wise, and I can appreciate their point. However, I want to HONOUR you, as
our great God HONOURS you, for this oh-so-open sharing with us, and for the way you are Walking with Him. I know you don't seek honour - but I am allowed to give you honour! *so there! lol*

Lessons you've been learning from God are lessons for all of us. He wants SO DESPERATELY for us ALL to stand up and truly BE HIS - no matter the cost, taking whatever steps are necessary to do this!

Bless you with every possible Spiritual blessing in the Lord Jesus Christ!!!
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You know I thought about that after I posted it. Some say even a Pastor in our church had said that we are not to bring our trash before others.. however.. I feel in my heart very strongly that God wants me to share with others my sin of many things.. especially in light of the sexual side and more importantly NOT TRUSTING HIM AND THAT HE DOES FORGIVE US AND LOVES US AND THAT THERE IS LIFE AND HOPE.

It is a dark world that we live in, but may the Lord use my testimony and my written words to help others see, that there is hope, there is salvation. We no longer need to live in the dark, we can live in the light and he shows us the way!
Praise be to God!

Faithwoman
 
Faithwoman I want to say I love you.

Your story and that God's Answers thing helped me like you wouldn't believe just now
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I love you too! and JESUS LOVES YOU. HE DOES FORGIVE YOU. We do not need to live with guilt and shame. Once we understand who he is and how much he loves us.. man it is so awesome to wake up now every day with that burden lifted off of us.

I pray for all that they may come to know him, how awesome he is!
I hid things for way to long.. well from other people.. but we hide nothing from God.. he knows all... we can sit around in life having all that baggage in our souls, or we can drop that baggage at the foot of the cross.. to the man who died and loved us so much.. and he will carry it forth for us.. and we therefore can go forth and enjoy the peace, freedom.. and more importantly.. share with others.. and help others.

Have an awesome day!

Faithwoman
 
As I was showering and praying I wanted to mention one other thing.
Through my journey I prayed to God.. God please let me go forth and be able to share with others. I want to be able to help people. I do not want anyone going through what I have gone through the last 46 years of my life.
I told myself that if I could just save one woman (then I changed the prayer to include men as well) and changed it to anyone.. and I mean anyone, it would be well worth it. I learned I cannot save anyone... only Jesus can!
Allelullia! HOWEVER, I can share his love, grace and mercy with all and encourage and lead them to him.

I realized the most important person first on God's priority list and mine is my 15 year old daughter.. I have been open with her about 2 months ago and told her where my life had been and where it is now going., all due to the love of Jesus!

Have a super day!
Praises to you oh Lord!

Faithwoman
 
I have been getting so filled. But after the high, the next morning It's almost like drinking and getting a hangover. How? I don't feel that "high" anymore so I kinda feel regretful of what I've said and done in the Spirit. That foolish feeling you get after a night of getting so liquored you are unsure of what you've done... I know this is wrong and once I'm filled again I'll be fine. But it's kinda scary. Why is my worldly mind the default setting?
 
Mark_18 said:
Faithwoman I want to say I love you.

Your story and that God's Answers thing helped me like you wouldn't believe just now. I've been praying for the salvation of my family members and friends and I had sins that contributed to how they are lost. I felt sick with guilt. You helped me see Jesus really has died for me. God has forgiven me so that I can forgive myself. And God is always with me.

God really loves us so much and I want you all to know I love you guys as brothers and sisters too. I'm really understanding what that means. I'm in tears of joy. All the pain and agony this life would hold for me is gone!!! There's no love greater! Praise the Lord! I can't believe I was lost for so long, and HE was offering me THIS! I want all to see Him!

God Bless you all!

Mark
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Mark, you 'got' all of this. You understand, and have accepted it. Before anything can become real in our lives, we have to understand it in our mind. That's very important. But then it has to move to our heart, (can be hard, and take time...) where a new, different, and much more effective reality comes. This is the ultimate goal where our heart truly 'gets' the truth.

Then you wrote this:


Mark_18 said:
I have been getting so filled. But after the high, the next morning It's almost like drinking and getting a hangover. How? I don't feel that "high" anymore so I kinda feel regretful of what I've said and done in the Spirit. That foolish feeling you get after a night of getting so liquored you are unsure of what you've done... I know this is wrong and once I'm filled again I'll be fine. But it's kinda scary. Why is my worldly mind the default setting?
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Most of us need to beware of the highs and lows of FEELINGS. Faith is NOT a feeling. Faith takes you through whatever's happening, be it something that's great, or something that's hard. Please understand that feelings can be extremely unreliable as a guide to how we're going Spiritually. Sounds like you went right to the peak of the mountain top. But none of us can stay THERE! So next day, or whenever, we're back down on the plain, and we are missing - maybe badly missing - the high we had yesterday.

Does this mean you've crashed or something? Unlikely. It's just the trap of feelings getting to you. So what should we do? ENSURE that we are founded on Scripture FACTS (for our mind) and FAITH in Jesus (in our hearts). Both of these can be very very stable and that's how I now live my life. I don't now go up onto highs actually - cos then you don't need to experience any 'withdrawal symptoms'! I'm not at all sure that the highs are really very good for us anyway!

Now, the one who is filled with the Spirit of the living God can be very stable in his life. The Holy Spirit doesn't go up and down!! So just rest in His Presence and in Him filling you always, i.e., don't let yourself get hung up on any of the unstable things above.

Finally, your Christian walk will inevitably be affected by a worldly mind. If you've had that a long time, then it may take some time for it to get healed. ONLY the power of the Holy Spirit can free you to cleanliness. But you can help by your ATTITUDE, like this from Paul:

Colossians Chap. 3
1 If then you were raised with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ is, sitting at the right hand of God. 2 Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth. 3 For you died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God.

So firstly fill your mind with Spiritual things, Paul says (and do continue reading further into this Chapter for some strong and good words). Secondly, the NT is very clear that you ARE dead (in Christ) to the old things in your mind. They're just taking time to finally lie down and die! Stick with it, for the ultimate victory is more than worth it! - and bear in mind that this Life is never meant to be easy!! Finally, filling of the Spirit is not a feeling either. It's just knowing, and that knowing is based on the truth of His Word.

Much love!

- BM
 
Faithwoman said:
Wow, my dear one, I can tell you that it's a very brave thing to share so much of your life like this - including your sin - for all to read. Some would even say this is not wise, and I can appreciate their point. However, I want to HONOUR you, as

You know I thought about that after I posted it. Some say even a Pastor in our church had said that we are not to bring our trash before others.. however.. I feel in my heart very strongly that God wants me to share with others my sin of many things.. especially in light of the sexual side and more importantly NOT TRUSTING HIM AND THAT HE DOES FORGIVE US AND LOVES US AND THAT THERE IS LIFE AND HOPE.

It is a dark world that we live in, but may the Lord use my testimony and my written words to help others see, that there is hope, there is salvation. We no longer need to live in the dark, we can live in the light and he shows us the way!
Praise be to God!

Faithwoman
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Faithwoman said:
I love you too! and JESUS LOVES YOU. HE DOES FORGIVE YOU. We do not need to live with guilt and shame. Once we understand who he is and how much he loves us.. man it is so awesome to wake up now every day with that burden lifted off of us.

I pray for all that they may come to know him, how awesome he is!
I hid things for way to long.. well from other people.. but we hide nothing from God.. he knows all... we can sit around in life having all that baggage in our souls, or we can drop that baggage at the foot of the cross.. to the man who died and loved us so much.. and he will carry it forth for us.. and we therefore can go forth and enjoy the peace, freedom.. and more importantly.. share with others.. and help others.

Have an awesome day!

Faithwoman
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Yes, the total FORGIVENESS from His inestimable LOVE surely does cover all of our guilt and shame like you said. Your life is showing how powerfully these things can operate when it's given over totally to the Lord. How far you've come and how you're continuing your walk with Him is truly uplifting. Thankyou for sharing!


Faithwoman said:
As I was showering and praying I wanted to mention one other thing.
Through my journey I prayed to God.. God please let me go forth and be able to share with others. I want to be able to help people. I do not want anyone going through what I have gone through the last 46 years of my life.
I told myself that if I could just save one woman (then I changed the prayer to include men as well) and changed it to anyone.. and I mean anyone, it would be well worth it. I learned I cannot save anyone... only Jesus can!
Allelullia! HOWEVER, I can share his love, grace and mercy with all and encourage and lead them to him.

I realized the most important person first on God's priority list and mine is my 15 year old daughter.. I have been open with her about 2 months ago and told her where my life had been and where it is now going., all due to the love of Jesus!

Have a super day!
Praises to you oh Lord!

Faithwoman
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God places high priority on family. With a married couple, your spouse is first. If you have children they're next. Twice in my life I fell into the trap of ministering to other people's kids more than my own. Please don't let this happen to any of you!
 
SweetSurrender said:
Also, a guilty feeling I always carry around is when I had an affair and never told my husband about it. I didn't tell him because it would probably change our marriage in the trust area. How do I get rid of this guilt? Do I need to confess it to my husband afterall?
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Hon, this is often a quite difficult decision - and it's gonna be different for everyone. If the Lord convicts you that you MUST confess a sin to your spouse, then obviously you must do so. But otherwise, many times you can do more harm than good with unwisely speaking of something better left unsaid. Also, it may not yet be the right time. So please don't go ahead of Him! At the same time, you should not be hanging on to guilt! This is FORGIVEN! Go to Romans 8:1 to get this removed by the Lord (at that time He may well indicate to you whether to speak to your hubby or not).

So I would advise going to the Lord with an open mind and heart, i.e., a total willingness to do whatever He says, and ask Him to guide you what to do. Please be aware that as a young Christian it's possible for our conscience to give us a wrong answer that we can confuse with being the Lord's answer. Our conscience has been affected by our sinful estate just like all other parts of us, and needs to be re-educated like all other parts. So just take care with this. Praying with you on this important matter! (The answers to the rest of your questions are just about ready to be posted as an important Message.)

- BM
 
OH, Faithwoman! What a testimony! That knocked my socks off! Wow! How powerful is that? We serve an AWESOME and WONDERFUL Savior, dont we? I look back on my own life (ugh, who wants to go there?) and wonder why did it take so long to 'get it'? But that is no longer important. What's important is that now, we 'get it' and will pass it on to others. Planting seeds that will help other people 'get it' as soon as they can.
Mark, we love you, too! God loves you in such an awesome and passionate way, that its hard to describe, and sometimes hard to comprehend.

Bondman, just love your thread! Such an uplifting place of encouragement and edification! Thank You, Lord! For leading Bondman to start this!:groupray:
 
Mark_18 said:
I have been getting so filled. But after the high, the next morning It's almost like drinking and getting a hangover. How? I don't feel that "high" anymore so I kinda feel regretful of what I've said and done in the Spirit. That foolish feeling you get after a night of getting so liquored you are unsure of what you've done... I know this is wrong and once I'm filled again I'll be fine. But it's kinda scary. Why is my worldly mind the default setting?
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Thanks for sharing your wisdom BondMan. I should add that I probably had too many energy drinks that night. lol! I forgot. I can see God probably does not like anyone abusing RedBulls. They wake you up, make your mind more active, so made me feel more activley praising God, but I don't think that's right. Just like drinking makes you more emotional and feel music better.

"Faith is not a feeling"

That's a great thing to keep in mind, thanks.

I would think that eventually I can go to those highs without feeling like that after, but you have life experience not me. I guess I'm just addicted to being filled so much that I'm giddy. lol.
 
Hey, Mark! Being 'on the mountain top' is what I call that. It's not something we should seek to have all the time, that is impossible! However, when God does choose to let us experience that, we should enjoy it, remembering that we will 'come down to earth' and get back to every day living.
Too many Redbulls will very likely have that kind of effect, so its best to use them in moderation. Like everything else...balance!
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Most of us need to beware of the highs and lows of FEELINGS. Faith is NOT a feeling. Faith takes you through whatever's happening, be it something that's great, or something that's hard. Please understand that feelings can be extremely unreliable as a guide to how we're going Spiritually. Sounds like you went right to the peak of the mountain top. But none of us can stay THERE! So next day, or whenever, we're back down on the plain, and we are missing - maybe badly missing - the high we had yesterday.
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I too must remember that on my walk. It all was such a high on Monday, Tuesday was filled with anxiety waiting to give notice.. and man Wednesday I was having to pull up from the boot straps.
I'm getting there.. this whole life is a journey and I am loving what I am learning!

Faithwoman
 
Ya, life was so boring before finding Him. I was just living day to day. I had silly selfish goals in life, just trying to be happy. He saved me though. I need not fret, as I am young and he is always with me now.
 
Mark_18 said:
Ya, life was so boring before finding Him. I was just living day to day. I had silly selfish goals in life, just trying to be happy. He saved me though. I need not fret, as I am young and he is always with me now.
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Oh, yeah! That is all so GOOD, Mark!! One of the things I just ADORE about belonging to Jesus is that I can just reeeeee-aaax!!! His love surrounds me always. I am in His hands. I am loved - TOTALLY!! And all is OKAY!!!!!
 
Fluffy said:
Hey, Mark! Being 'on the mountain top' is what I call that. It's not something we should seek to have all the time, that is impossible! However, when God does choose to let us experience that, we should enjoy it, remembering that we will 'come down to earth' and get back to every day living.
Too many Redbulls will very likely have that kind of effect, so its best to use them in moderation. Like everything else...balance!
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Wow, great post, Fluf!!

And what you said is SO true: I've seen so many who live for the 'high' and seek it constantly, and it becomes so seriously bad for them because this HIGH actually replaces Jesus! I hope that shocks you dear ones here, cos I've lost count of the number of things I've seen or experienced in my long life that we can - and DO - use to try and fill our lives, and so what happens?... THAT THING DOES REPLACE JESUS, YET WE CAN BE TOTALLY UNAWARE THAT'S WHAT WE'VE DONE!!! Yikes-a-mundo!!!!


"Balance". Absolutely spot on again. Know what I reckon, hon? - we serious 'fair dinkum' Christians ought to rename ourselves so that "Balance" becomes our middle name!!! And I'm not joking. Moderation, balance, keeping cool, 'chill' as our young people used to say (do they still? - not sure). This will all help no end in keeping our FOCUS. We just GOTTA be hitting the dead centre of the target every day! Who is to be
the absolute CENTER ​
of that FOCUS ​
of our WHOLE LIVES: ​
THE LORD JESUS CHRIST!!!​



Praise and Glory be to His Holy Name for ever and ever, Amen!!!​
 
SERIOUS PRAYER REQUEST

I'm sadly lacking in knowing what to say here. I trust all of you guys who are Inner Roomies (no matter whether you post or not). You literally ARE our family. We are quite alone in this world EXCEPT FOR YOU GUYS!! We have carers who come in and keep us alive and going for 16 hours per week. The other 152 hours it's all up to us.

The ill-health from Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (new people can read about this HERE) and Fibro-myalgia that we've had most of our lives have been getting worse and worse in recent time. We are now both very close to the end of our rope. Off with a carer to our wonderful Doc yesterday and he's at his wit's end concerning us too - does NOT know what else to do with us. In desperationa about me, he's ordered a great battery of tests to try and ascertain what's 'killed' my memory and affecting my brain so adversely. I just can't retain things in my mind (excepting for Spiritual things, and Ministry stuff here!!! - but even that is beginning to get hard.)

I'm driving my Beloved crazy cos she's having to remember stuff for me, find things I've 'lost', and so on and on. But she's so sick and tired all the time that she's got a full-time job trying to look after herself - without me as EXTRA. Doc can't give her any more pills and potions to help her stay out of serious clinical depression she's constantly fighting against - cos they would interact with the many meds she already takes!

The over 5 months of continual computer problems I'm having to work on each day whether I'm well enough to or not has been the 'straw' that's broken the camel's back for us both. We'd have managed to cope with just our ill-health - but that PLUS computers has just about done for us. This IS all very serious, probly moreso that I can adequately express.


Some years ago God promised me COMPLETE healing for us both. Cos He's ANSWERED this prayer I prayed for for many years, He's told me I am not allowed to pray for it further (just THANK Him - perfectly logical, right). But I believe that it's okay for you guys to earnestly ask Him to help us, so we can make it through. There IS a major blockage I'm aware of that I cannot do anything about. I have no sense that this is to do with satan - but rather simply needs urgent and serious prayer to the Lord, so that HE can (and will) sort it!

You lovely and dear folks all know that I know He'll never let us down. But struggling on our own to get through each day in one piece is getting closer and closer to impossible! I do fear that my Beloved could 'lose it', cos she's already very close, and this would be absolutely catastrophic for us both. For reasons much too complex to tryu and explain, we cannot be hospitalised, and I cannot go into a Nursing Home (not without making things WORSE rather than better!!! - these are simply NOT solutions for us...)

Okay, that's more than enough. GOD IS ABLE!!! THANKYOU for caring about us and lovinig us. Man, we sure don't take THAT lightly! Bless you all!!

- Bondman and his Lady
 
Fluffy said:
OH, Faithwoman! What a testimony! That knocked my socks off! Wow! How powerful is that? We serve an AWESOME and WONDERFUL Savior, dont we? I look back on my own life (ugh, who wants to go there?) and wonder why did it take so long to 'get it'? But that is no longer important. What's important is that now, we 'get it' and will pass it on to others. Planting seeds that will help other people 'get it' as soon as they can.
Mark, we love you, too! God loves you in such an awesome and passionate way, that its hard to describe, and sometimes hard to comprehend.

Bondman, just love your thread! Such an uplifting place of encouragement and edification! Thank You, Lord! For leading Bondman to start this!:groupray:
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I don't know how I missed responding to this post, dear one! Thankyou for your very kind words. You are such an encouragement!

Yes, it happens that we take time to 'get it'. I guess we're coming from such a sinful position that God has a mighty big job to get our eyes open and our mind open! I look back too and wonder how I could have been so dumb... But like you say, what matters is NOW, and that's sure true, and Scriptural to boot.

A fantastic God Who's constantly working in us to make us to be like Jesus. A Saviour and Lord Who's so amazing as to be beyond words to describe. And that Spirit Who we've been sharing about together, Who reveals truth to us, and reveals Jesus to us. WOW!! How we are blessed beyond measure!!!!!
 
Struggling

Ok I have question.
Last night I spent some time with a girlfriend of mine, who is really trying to seek God and her purpose for being here.
At 11:30 I prayed with her.. I said Amen and then she said wait a minute.. she then said Dear god.. man I feel Dorky. I don't know how to do this. I told her just talk to God.. I talked with her..We held hands and talked to God for 2 hours. It was such a cleansing experience for her.

Now the thing that her and many ask is Why Does God let bad things happen. She had alot of anger about her dad's death which was some time ago.
She said like I prayed so hard for God to heal my dad and not let my dad die and he died anyway. I have had other folks say like why did God let that guy kill all those kids at the Columbine School.

So in speaking to another very close friend of mine today from years ago , and even though we are at a distance, we were talking about life. She said remember the time your grandfather talked to me ( my grandfather was a Lutheran pastor). She cannot remember the circumstance but my Grandfather said there are times when we do not know why, but you are to listen.

So.. Bondman or others can you help me out how to respond to people when they ask why the bad things happen and why God allows them.

Thanks a heap!
Finally got to bed at 1:30 am and back up at 3:30 Am to go and do Angel Food Ministry. It was a great day, my last day for doing that local ministry here in this community.. God is taking me to a different place, the land of the unknown for me. but God has a plan for me.. and I wait with excitment for it all!

Faithwoman:)
 
OH, Faithwoman! You have asked the question of the ages! The answer is God has given us free will, and man in the beginning chosen to sin. Sin is in the world, and is wreaking havoc.
But, we ask, if God is all powerful, why doesnt He intervene? In some instances, He does. But not always. And often not in the way we think should happen. Bad things happen to good people because that is life. Life is hard, and often times unfair.
His ways are not our ways. His thoughts are not our thoughts.
When rough times come and things get confusing, we are to trust in Him. Trust that He knows what He is doing and He has a bigger picture than we do. Many times, the best answer we can come up with to questions like these is "I dont know. But I trust God."

There is a song that goes "There's a bigger picture you cant see, you dont have to change the world, just trust in Me, I am your creator, I am working out My plan, thru I will show them I AM"
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Why?

Faithwoman,
Yes, that is truly one of "those" questions.

Even as Bondman and his Lady struggle so every day, they still continue to minister to us. They truly share the love of our Lord through their lives. And you can bet their care-givers see this and it has somehow changed their lives as well.

I used to be a caregiver and a lot of my patients tried to share His love with me too, but I didn't "get it." It was too foreign to me. But, knowing Bondman, I'll bet there is no doubt about it. He is straight forward and Spirit led.

Thanx, Bondman for the Love you share with us all and if we could, if it were possible, we would go down under and lay hands on ya!

So, yes, this is one of the most difficult questions for me. What is going on with these two lovely people? I've told my husband about you guys and he said it sounds like it's something in your home that is causing so much reaction since you both have the same problems. I know both FM and fatigue are hard-to-treat diseases and hard to even diagnos. I'm sure the Drs. have looked into your environment, though.

Just know that you are both in our prayers and we should all be hearing some good news soon. Maybe it will even take fasting and prayer. :groupray::groupray::groupray:
 
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