Wow,
@God is Love! You must be really hurting, to write such a note back to me, because you must be in such pain that you did not read what I wrote. You stopped short.
You are being loved and encouraged by the writers in your thread! Please take that, and read what the writers are saying to you with an open heart. Okay?
And I don't remember what that Scripture is, so in the meantime, I will try to remember and tell you.
You are loved, young man. What a heart for both your mother and G-d you must have! Let it develop in kindness.