confused college kid
sooo, my name is daniel and im a college kid and im at a big crossroads in life.
Its my 4th year in college an i can honestly say, I have no clue where or what road to take...i'm kinda at a cross roads with life and it's priorities. I guess you could call it the great depression of my life. I've had my ups, and don't want to be a debbie downer, but I can honestly say I have never been so confused.
I know I should pray, handover my worries to god, and let him take the wheel and direct me in my paths, but i got to admit, my faith isn't what it should be.
College is so tough...i'm a very blunt person, i dont sugar coat anything, so i can only be honest here and say i've done my fair share of partying and it's lead to bad choices, but I'm 22 years old now and i've put all that stuff in the past because i got to stay on the grind of serving and loving jesus. It's been a tough transition, i have lost alot of friends. I'm on the outside looking in with the whole college scene. I don't know where i fit in, i feel like a puzzle piece trying to fit into a slot of a whole other puzzle, no matter how hard i try to make sense of everything, i find myself at square one...lost in the college world.
The easy way out would be to say, you know what, lets just put the partying shoes back on and walk around...but ive been there...and u wake up with not only a hangover, but emptiness, and no self fullfillment.
I'm done going down that dead end road, but i have no sense of direction, and i feel like god's not speaking to me, but deep down i know im just not listening.
I'm to caught up in myself and trying to fix things on my own and control things I can't. I went through a tough break up last year, I dated this girl for nearly 3 years and she was my first love. So, right now Im dealing with the whole, "Im 22 years old...not trying to be single at 45 (not that theres anything wrong with that)...just speaking in generalizations that I want to find love again." But it's like, all girls are either nuts, or, how do i say this in a christain forum...they get around. Girls are worst than guys these days...it's sad. It really is. I've been single since last november, and don't get me wrong, i have went on dates, but none have stuck...i felt god telling me, "she's not right for you right now, or it's not the right time." However, at the same time, it's discouraging.
So before I bore everyone into a coma, I'm going to end here, thanks in advance for the people who actual took the time to read this, its greatly appreciated. In the mean time, I'm going to try to talk to God and do my best to make sense of this crazy college world.
god bless
sooo, my name is daniel and im a college kid and im at a big crossroads in life.
Its my 4th year in college an i can honestly say, I have no clue where or what road to take...i'm kinda at a cross roads with life and it's priorities. I guess you could call it the great depression of my life. I've had my ups, and don't want to be a debbie downer, but I can honestly say I have never been so confused.
I know I should pray, handover my worries to god, and let him take the wheel and direct me in my paths, but i got to admit, my faith isn't what it should be.
College is so tough...i'm a very blunt person, i dont sugar coat anything, so i can only be honest here and say i've done my fair share of partying and it's lead to bad choices, but I'm 22 years old now and i've put all that stuff in the past because i got to stay on the grind of serving and loving jesus. It's been a tough transition, i have lost alot of friends. I'm on the outside looking in with the whole college scene. I don't know where i fit in, i feel like a puzzle piece trying to fit into a slot of a whole other puzzle, no matter how hard i try to make sense of everything, i find myself at square one...lost in the college world.
The easy way out would be to say, you know what, lets just put the partying shoes back on and walk around...but ive been there...and u wake up with not only a hangover, but emptiness, and no self fullfillment.
I'm done going down that dead end road, but i have no sense of direction, and i feel like god's not speaking to me, but deep down i know im just not listening.
I'm to caught up in myself and trying to fix things on my own and control things I can't. I went through a tough break up last year, I dated this girl for nearly 3 years and she was my first love. So, right now Im dealing with the whole, "Im 22 years old...not trying to be single at 45 (not that theres anything wrong with that)...just speaking in generalizations that I want to find love again." But it's like, all girls are either nuts, or, how do i say this in a christain forum...they get around. Girls are worst than guys these days...it's sad. It really is. I've been single since last november, and don't get me wrong, i have went on dates, but none have stuck...i felt god telling me, "she's not right for you right now, or it's not the right time." However, at the same time, it's discouraging.
So before I bore everyone into a coma, I'm going to end here, thanks in advance for the people who actual took the time to read this, its greatly appreciated. In the mean time, I'm going to try to talk to God and do my best to make sense of this crazy college world.
god bless