Crossroads of Faith
Hello everybody, firstly I would like to tell you that I'm happy to be part of this community, even tho I'm a newbie
Well I'm proud to be Christian but I don't know a lot about it and am passing through a period of my life where I ask a lot of questions, I'm 15.
Anyways to give you a background of things, I started college and I got a huge crush on a girl whom I've never talked to, only seen her once. Unfortunately a guy who hates me and wants me dead
() is also attending the same college. He used to be my greatest friend but said that I made him annoying and decided to throw me out of his life, (later on I found out that he did it because he wanted a girl I was very close with.) He swore revenge and wants to take everything away from me that made me happy, till this day. (Said it himself.)
Back on track, if I manage to find this girl amongst thousands of students at college I'm scared that if he sees me with her he would get involved and, well, try to have a sexual relationship with her, he's done it before. I'm basically in a prison. This guy, I must admit, is more good looking than me and has a more cheerful character so this girl would fall for him like any other. If I try to tell her the truth about him she would deny it because of his looks and character, I tried it before.
I was thinking of doing something to him that would make him unwanted by girls, like a revenge of my own. That way I could relax and don't worry of him taking this girl just to annoy me. But I keep getting this feeling inside me, a thought actually, " If you do it, God will never let you try with this girl, you will not even manage to find her." This thought is always playing in my mind every time I think, its maddening. On the other hand if I don't do anything he would get involved with this girl, no use hiding, he knows a lot of people.
If I do something to him (not kill him or physically hurt him), will God punish me by removing this girl from my life? Are these thoughts from God first of all or just my imagination and fear of losing another girl? Will God have revenge on me?
A big thank you to those who read this and/or helped me!
Hello everybody, firstly I would like to tell you that I'm happy to be part of this community, even tho I'm a newbie

Well I'm proud to be Christian but I don't know a lot about it and am passing through a period of my life where I ask a lot of questions, I'm 15.

Anyways to give you a background of things, I started college and I got a huge crush on a girl whom I've never talked to, only seen her once. Unfortunately a guy who hates me and wants me dead

Back on track, if I manage to find this girl amongst thousands of students at college I'm scared that if he sees me with her he would get involved and, well, try to have a sexual relationship with her, he's done it before. I'm basically in a prison. This guy, I must admit, is more good looking than me and has a more cheerful character so this girl would fall for him like any other. If I try to tell her the truth about him she would deny it because of his looks and character, I tried it before.
I was thinking of doing something to him that would make him unwanted by girls, like a revenge of my own. That way I could relax and don't worry of him taking this girl just to annoy me. But I keep getting this feeling inside me, a thought actually, " If you do it, God will never let you try with this girl, you will not even manage to find her." This thought is always playing in my mind every time I think, its maddening. On the other hand if I don't do anything he would get involved with this girl, no use hiding, he knows a lot of people.
If I do something to him (not kill him or physically hurt him), will God punish me by removing this girl from my life? Are these thoughts from God first of all or just my imagination and fear of losing another girl? Will God have revenge on me?

A big thank you to those who read this and/or helped me!
