I don't believe these thoughts but I don't want to be in hell
NO ONE WANTS TO BE IN HELL my friend.
Do YOU remember a time when YOU asked the Lord Jesus Christ to forgive YOU of YOUR sin and ask Him into your heart.?????
Did YOU ask Him to save YOU and did you believe in the gosple????
IF you do not remember or you have not done that, why not do it right now, today this very minute?????
The one and only way to not go to hell is to NOT believe upon the Lord Jesus Christ for the payment of YOUR sins.
THAT IS THE UNPARDONABLE SIN!
Now only reading from your own words, it seems to me that you are very confused and not learned in the Bible.
If I am wrong I apologize. One of the hardest things to do in Christianity is to have a conversation with out presence.
1st things first...........Since you are exhibiting such confusion please do the the most important thing 1st.........The Bible says that-----
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For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God” (Romans 3:23)
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But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” (Romans 5:8)
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For, ‘Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.’” (Romans 10:13)
"That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. 10 For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.(Romans 10:9).
Now having read taht will you Please read these words on your screen aloud and MEAN them in your heart.............
Dear God in heaven, I come to you in the name of Jesus. I acknowledge to You that I am a sinner, and I am sorry for my sins and the life that I have lived; I need your forgiveness.
I believe that your only begotten Son Jesus Christ shed His precious blood on the cross at Calvary and died for my sins, and I am now willing to turn from my sin.
You said in the bible that if we confess the Lord our God and believe in our hearts that God raised Jesus from the dead, we shall be saved.
Right now I confess Jesus as my Lord. With my heart, I believe that God raised Jesus from the dead.
This very moment I accept Jesus Christ as my own personal Savior and according to His Word, right now I am saved. Amen.
Now if you have done that and you believe it to be true, at THIS VERY MOMENT IN YOUR LIFE....YOU my friend are saved from the judgment of YOUR sins. You have accepted the payment of Jesus for YOU.
Now......REMOVE ANY DOUBT OF NOT GOING TO HEAVEN.
Forget completely the Unpardonable sin as it does not apply to YOU!
Remember, DOUBTS, FEARS, and CONFUSION do not come from GOD! All of those come from Sartan and it is he who seeks to condemmn you.
Now the 2nd thing I always advise is a prayer of COMMITMENT!
Please take the time to read aloud the following.................................
Dear Heavenly Father,
You are my Lord and my God. I know from Your Word that a broken spirit, a broken and a contrite heart is a sacrifice, O God, that You will not despise.
I come before you now to offer myself to you Lord God – all of me – my body, my mind and my soul. All I have, all I am, are Yours and Yours alone.
In the name of Jesus, I also choose to forgive all those who have ever wronged me or who have ever spoken slanderous words against me. I bless each one of them in the name of Jesus and pray that the love and peace of Jesus will fall heavily upon them now..
I also submit my body to You as a living sacrifice; for Your use and the use of You Kingdom. Lord, let me no longer be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of my mind such that I may be a sacrifice to Your good and acceptable and perfect will.
Lead me Lord, onto and along that narrow path which You have chosen for me, so that my destiny may be fulfilled exactly as You have planned since before I was in my mother’s womb.
Use me Lord, for the magnification of Your name and Your glory and for Your Kingdom, according to Your will.
O Lord God, as I submit myself to you, I commit to doing everything I do, to saying everything I say, and to choosing everything I choose, for the sake of Your Kingdom and not mine.
Father, I pray this in the mighty name of Your son, Lord Jesus Christ, my Lord and my Saviour. Amen!
Now the 3rd step..........
Seek out a Christian church or a Christian Pastor who believes what you just did to be Scriptural to BAPTISE you in water.
God bless you my child and may God heal your broken spirit NOW!