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I just wanted to say HI. I am trying to learn more about God and what he wants for my life because I have been wondering around in life with no direction.
thank you, I have been very negative. I push all good things God has given me away and I'm trying to restore some of these things. Relationships and things. Its so hard for me because I have a negative mind full of just...worry and I'm scared that its too late.
thank you, I have been very negative. I push all good things God has given me away and I'm trying to restore some of these things. Relationships and things. Its so hard for me because I have a negative mind full of just...worry and I'm scared that its too late.

Still breathing? If you are its not too late! Care to share your salvation testimony? Do you understand what it means to be 'saved'?
Yeah I think so. I believe in God I always have since I was young. I grew up going to Baptist church. I compare my life to others a lot and I prayed to God to bring back my boyfriend about a year ago I treated him pretty bad when all he tried to do was be there for me. God restored my relationship and then I was mean to him again. Cursing at him yelling at him and just treating him really bad. Needless to say he left again. I want to change myself. I want to fix things. My negative mind just is overwhelming. Ugh. Its a lot to explain. I been through a lot. When I get in relationships I lose God I forget about him. But I want to keep him in my life.
Well; the core and intent of the Holy Bible is the salvation of mankind. Each person is given the choice in their life to either accept or reject the Creator-God, and all He has done for us in the person of Jesus Christ. Without accepting salvation and asking God into your heart, reading the Bible is just a book. People who are not 'saved' are missing a key ingredient in understanding and communing with God-The Holy Spirit.

After salvation, if you want to receive blessings, there must be obedience to God's Word. And the first step in that is believer's baptism. Getting dunked is just taking a quick bath without first accepting God's gift-the death of our Holy Sacrifice to pay our sin debt-Jesus Christ.
I do accept God into my heart. I do. Its just hard because I have been sick and I wonder why God took away my senses. I wonder why none of my relationships will work. I wonder why life is so hard for me when I try to be a better person. I am giving up a lot of bad things I usually do. I want to be better.
Well that's just the thing; we are made in His image; BUT we are given free will-which means we have to make that choice in our hearts.

The Bible teaches ALL (that means every single human being ever on the planet -except one-including Moses, David, Paul, etc...) are sinners-born in a sinful nature. Attempting to correct your 'self' by 'yourself' is impossible. You NEED the assistance of the Holy Spirit. He made you that way on purpose-you wants you dependent on HIM!

People ask: "why"? Truth is, only God knows why he puts you in the situations you are in . And the other thing is; many of our 'circumstances' are caused by our own decisions-not 'tests and trials of God' although He will chasten His children. But first-you must choose to be His child covered in the blood of Christ BEFORE he will try you. That doesn't mean you won't encounter God's people and mercy along the way-but you can be under that umbrella of mercy if you want too.

Perhaps God is using your situation to get you to draw closer to Him...(before it is too late)
Depression can be caused by many things; I would qualify most depression as lacking spiritual needs. There are cases that it is a 'physical' cause, requiring possible medication and/or therapy. Have you talked to anyone about this? Do you have a Bible believing Church home with an accessible Pastor?
I thought inside that maybe that's what God is doing (using my situation to get me closer to him) Before me and my boyfriend broke up....DEEP DOWN INSIDE I felt SO depressed. He had just taken me on a wonderful trip even after his brother died from cancer! and he was so down and I was SO MEAN TO HIM. I didn't know what was coming over me! I said to myself omg what am I doing being so mean and ungrateful to him. I said I need to turn around! I starting reading THE SECRET. It still didn't feel right. Then a week later I was mean to my boyfriend again and he broke up with me. Maybe I'm wrong but I feel like God is saying WAKE UP look! Look you're never happy Appreciate your life the people who love you. But now I'm scared like Oh no I was changing now its over I still want to change I want to make it right. Its not all about my ex its about just everything. Man. I'm just so confused. Maybe I'm wrong about all this. I dont know. The other day I prayed to God please help me with this. What do I do. Then I got an email that my ex send me money (I told him before we broke up I can't pay a bill) there it was. But was it god showing me something or just a coincidence. What is happening?
2 Timothy 1:
7 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.

Matthew 5

1And seeing the multitudes, he went up into a mountain: and when he was set, his disciples came unto him:
2 And he opened his mouth, and taught them, saying,
3 Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
4 Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.
5 Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth.
6 Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.
7 Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.
8 Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.
9 Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.
10 Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
11 Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.
12 Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you
God has spoken to all of us through His Word-which is His Son Jesus Christ. The real question is are we listening?

1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.
2 The same was in the beginning with God.
3 All things were made by him; and without him was not any thing made that was made.
4 In him was life; and the life was the light of men.
5 And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not.
6 There was a man sent from God, whose name was John.
7 The same came for a witness, to bear witness of the Light, that all men through him might believe.
8 He was not that Light, but was sent to bear witness of that Light.
9 That was the true Light, which lighteth every man that cometh into the world.

10 He was in the world, and the world was made by him, and the world knew him not.
11 He came unto his own, and his own received him not.
12 But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:
13 Which were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God.
14 And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us, (and we beheld his glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth.

Does He speak to us individually? I believe it is entirely possible....