Hi there,
Growing up, I went through what most people would and do not expect. I was bullied, abused (sexually, emotionally, and somewhat physically). I remember sitting alone in my closet weeping so hard and crying out to God. My prayers were not ever fully answered, but I ended up growing up, moving out of the home, and finding Jesus once more at the age of 23 when I believe I would have died after falling asleep had I not called out His name. Mind you, I never believed Jesus was God or the son of God since I grew up a Jehovah's Witness, where they believe Jesus is merely a "chosen one."
What happened to me that day was NOT a coincidence. My beliefs changed after that, and I too began seeking God again. It took years to heal from the abuse, and I am still not fully healed, but I am in a much better situation and feel much more at ease than I ever did before. God comforts me in a way I have not experienced in the past.
Getting to where I am now, which to many established long time believers is probably very elementary, was quite a battle. I struggled with nightmares my entire life and could rarely sleep in the dark. When I first began going to church, even last year, the nightmares became worse as well as some other things in my life. I never realized how difficult the struggle is especially for new believers. You are like an uncooked egg sitting in the middle of the street. At any time, a car or foot can crush you. Satan sees you the same way, which is why it is SO imperative that as you seek God, do your best to resist temptation of the world and if possible, become involved in the church and obtain Christian friends. Trust me; the devil will have less of a pull on you the more you surround yourself with Christ like people and situations.
Another thing I ask of you is to listen to Christian music only. This may seem difficult, but it truly is not. New, contemporary Christian music is even better than some of the mainstream stuff you hear on the radios now. There are stations like KLOVE (I recommend highly). Please, try for even a week to listen to that station. I guarantee it will help you stay on track.
In conclusion:
1) You've already started step one with the desire to come closer to the Lord. Congrats! Don't give up...continue to seek Him!
2) Go to church weekly, even twice a week if you can. For example, a Wednesday and Sunday service.
3) If you are ever confused-which you will, as well as have lots of questions, don't be afraid to ask someone in your church.
4) Join a bible study and/or ministry. A ministry can be with basketball, tennis, pool, dancing, or anything else you are interested in. Try to get more friends that are Christian.
5) Listen to contemporary Christian music only for at least a week. It will change your life!
6) Don't listen to Satan during this time. He will challenge your faith (he STILL does this to me), he will tell you that you are not saved, he will make you feel bad every time you sin, he will make you feel as though God does not love you or that you are not worthy of His love. Do not believe him. I have learned that whenever I hear negative thoughts that it can only be from Satan. Stand your ground and pray to God if you hear such voices.
Oh, and ever so importantly, please, please, only date believers. It will save you a ton of heartbreak in the end.
Good luck and God bless.