So, my boyfriend and I love eachother deeply and have been planning on getting married for a long time now. We are both... Christians, major christians who love God dearly.
But lately, both of us have been getting shaken and spoken to by God about SOMETHING with our relationship. And he finally realized that God has been telling us that we need to end our relationship and remain friends in christ in build ourselves through christ. Because, ever since we started dating.... We have become, soooo distant from God. To the point where he has given up ministry school for ME, because they do not allow dating (so your foccus can be on God). He loves me so much... That he said NO to that. And now we both realize how wrong that was.... The devil has been tempting us sexually too. We keep saying we will stop doing these...um, well, four play things (that will be my rated PG version, lol) but then we will fall back into old habbits and feel soooooooooo guilty and horrible and want to cry.
So anyway, we have decided... To be nothing more than friends... Who deep down to love eachother and go to church together and only take car rides together to resist from acting on our love for eachother. This will be for a year or so. Maybe longer, maybe shorter. Depending on what God is teaching us in that time apart...
We want to not be tempted to do sinful things, and we want to become mature and find our identity in God before we get married. And plus, he has a calling from God to be in the ministry in a big way, and I have been getting in the way of that for too long. He was given up so much for me... And he has ignored the holy spirit telling him, "NOW IS NOT THE TIME FOR YOU TWO TO BE TOGETHER."
My point in posting this, is i am deeply wondering if YOU have ever seen anyone, maybe yourself, maybe someone you know... Who has gone through this, and what their story was with all of it.... How did it go down? I need someone to talk to about this.... I am lost, and i need help because this is so so so heart breaking. I am letting go of my lover, and having to force myself to only be his friend in Christ.... I am crying as i am typing this....
But lately, both of us have been getting shaken and spoken to by God about SOMETHING with our relationship. And he finally realized that God has been telling us that we need to end our relationship and remain friends in christ in build ourselves through christ. Because, ever since we started dating.... We have become, soooo distant from God. To the point where he has given up ministry school for ME, because they do not allow dating (so your foccus can be on God). He loves me so much... That he said NO to that. And now we both realize how wrong that was.... The devil has been tempting us sexually too. We keep saying we will stop doing these...um, well, four play things (that will be my rated PG version, lol) but then we will fall back into old habbits and feel soooooooooo guilty and horrible and want to cry.
So anyway, we have decided... To be nothing more than friends... Who deep down to love eachother and go to church together and only take car rides together to resist from acting on our love for eachother. This will be for a year or so. Maybe longer, maybe shorter. Depending on what God is teaching us in that time apart...
We want to not be tempted to do sinful things, and we want to become mature and find our identity in God before we get married. And plus, he has a calling from God to be in the ministry in a big way, and I have been getting in the way of that for too long. He was given up so much for me... And he has ignored the holy spirit telling him, "NOW IS NOT THE TIME FOR YOU TWO TO BE TOGETHER."
My point in posting this, is i am deeply wondering if YOU have ever seen anyone, maybe yourself, maybe someone you know... Who has gone through this, and what their story was with all of it.... How did it go down? I need someone to talk to about this.... I am lost, and i need help because this is so so so heart breaking. I am letting go of my lover, and having to force myself to only be his friend in Christ.... I am crying as i am typing this....