Banjo, bro, look at what you said,
...I often feel like Satan is trying to sift me out and that maybe I'm being harassed by him.
IF
you think satan is sifting you, then that's a sign you are saved, satan doesn't mess with his own, another thing, where did you get the term
sifting, that's a Bible term, which means you had to receive it from the Word and to receive from the Word it has to be first given to us by the Holy Spirit 2 Cor 4:4.
Another thing, you
must believe there aren't any accidents in God's universe Matt 10:29-31, because if there was just one then He would not be God, ...so, it wasn't an accident you found this site in the billions of bytes that exist in cyber space, no my friend, it was a Divine appointment for you by your loving Heavenly Father to bring you here where His Children can love on you and help you.
Something else, to make it even more precise, ...in '82 I went crazy/insane/nuts, what ever they want to call it, but by the Grace of God they let me be an out-patient when I should of been locked up n a padded room (and this was before I was born again), they diagnosed me as schizophrenic/paranoid/depressed, gave me some drugs to take and out the door I went, took the drugs one time because it was just like coming on to LSD, a few days later a friend took me to church where they gave me a Bible with the words of Jesus written in red, I found that when I read the words written in red it would slow down my racing mind and I could sleep for a few minutes, for me it took 18 months before I was declared healed by them, ...just from reading those words in red, ...I was a babbling idiot, but that is definitely
not your case, so I suggest very strongly you start reading your Bible, especially the Gospels, and here is a treasure I never found during that time, 2 Tim 1:7, do you see that, what it's saying is Jesus doesn't want you to be mentally ill, you don't have to remain in that state, that is a promise from the Lord to you so receive it.
I know I'll get some flack from this with all the demonic physiological teaching that has infiltrated the Church, ...but it's true, God's Word
can heal us, there was a old Texas Bible preacher, James Vernon Magee, he had such a high confidence in the healing power of the Word that he would go into to the big cities and talk to prostitutes, drug addicts, people in the gutters with mental health problems and ask them it they wanted to be healed, if they said yes he would take them to a ranch, clean them up, feed them and then put them in an unlocked room with a Bible and tell them to start reading, they could come out at any time and were free to leave, there were a few that left and went back to their old habits, but there were many, many more that came out of their rooms healed, got saved, went to his church and went out into the world to help those that had the same problems they had been healed from, ...healed, just from reading His Word, ...now to all the naysayers, say and believe what you want, take your drugs and don't look at the Brazen Serpent, ...but I was healed from severe mental illness just by reading Jesus' Words, and you can't dispute that fact.
Banjo, dear brother, please, please, give Jesus a chance, me and a lot more in Texas were healed simply by reading and appropriating the Truth into our hearts.
In God's love,
Gene