Hello Pancakes. What you have posted is a real experience of doubt or what's it all about that most if not all other people go through.I feel I pray to God, He listens but.rarely answers despite my attempts to get closer to Him.
Where to start. OK - what is the nature of your relationship with Jesus? Are you a christian because you grew up in a denomination?
Are you a christian because you have been converted by the Holy Spirit and "born again"? This is the most dynamic relationship.
To what extent is your walk in the Lord complimentary to the Gospels and Epistles? When you read the New Testament do you readily exclaim yes, that's me!!
What is your understanding of your relationship to your Father in heaven through Jesus by the Holy Spirit? If born again by water and Spirit then you are a child of your Father by adoption through the Spirit. [Romans 8] You can petition your Father by the Spirit through Jesus [your mediator and intercessor on your behalf] for good things - like healings, miracles, provision for needs, changing your circumstances for the better. You can Pray for others with confidence.
Much in answered prayer is dependent on the quality and nature of your relationship in faith to the Scriptures and to Jesus.
God is always testing and refining faith through patience and his wisdom as to what we truly need as opposed to what we want. But not to breaking point.
When reading Psalms there are wonderful little prayers scattered throughout that are beneficial to growing, and learning, and guidance...
Psalm 119:59 I thought on my ways, and turned my feet unto thy testimonies.
Psalm 139:23-24 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:
And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
Psalm 143:10-11 Teach me to do thy will; for thou art my God: thy spirit is good; lead me into the land of uprightness.
Quicken [revive] me, O LORD, for thy name's sake: for thy righteousness' sake bring my soul out of trouble.
Pancakes, don't throw the baby out with the bathwater. Don't quit. Examine yourself and look at how you can get closer to God through the Holy Spirit.
Here is a link to a wonderful personal testimony from Ame Nyeadeh Zee from Liberia in Africa - her joy in the Lord
http://miracles.areonthe.net/TESTIM...ESTIMONY Posters/Ame Nyeadeh Zee, Liberia.pdf
Here is another personal testimony from a 81 year old lady, Bronwyn in Australia, who received the Holy Spirit and became a christian at this old age:
http://miracles.areonthe.net/TESTIM...NY Posters/Bronwyn B, Adelaide, Australia.pdf