I will explain a little more about what's been going on and I apologize for posting that thread about me ending my life. I should of just called the hotline or asked for help instead of talking about it and I had the best morning at church but the devil is seriously getting on my nerves and I'm sick of all the nightmares and sick and tired of being in fear. I just want to stand up for myself and believe that nothing can touch me or harm me because I've got the Armor of God! I can't fail! I just cannot fail anymore and I cannot show weakness! I'll update you guys even more just wanted to say I am back and I need you guys if you will still have me around here. I will refrain from any negative talk about suicide and go to God with that and then a pastor lol my apologies. I know I'm a troubled soul!