Daniel, I am so sorry for your pain but I am greatful for God's mercy in your life, we are all stories of redemption from darkness here (not all as tramatic as yours) and it is a testimony of our God's faithfullness that we stand.
Yeah, sorry about the length. It probably should be shortened. When I typed it up on Word, it was 5 pages long! Ooops! And I think this is a safe place! Thank you. God bless!