Hi - I can finally post now after joining a few days ago...yay! Just thought I'd let you know a little bit about myself:
I was Born Again in January 1997 for the 2nd time (had been baptized when I was 12 but a short time later turned my back on God). It was a very glorious, amazing, eye-opening, heartwarming, and loving time of my life. I loved the Lord and sincerely gave my life to Him. Though I was married to an unbeliever, I became very active in the church and Christian community.
In 2004 I began drifting away, and was having many unanswered questions about Christianity. Questions my pastor or others could not answer and I could not come to terms with. In 2005 I finally filed for divorce to end an abusive marriage, and that is when I left the church and God behind. Many sermons had been preached on God's disdain for divorce, and I knew I couldn't stay there and go through the divorce at the same time.
Since that time I have gone WAY to the other side, so-to-speak. I had reached the conclusion that I had been "brainwashed" (not REALLY, but figuratively) into believing all that Christian stuff. I won't even get into some lifestyle choices I've made over these past years. But...for reasons unbeknownst to me, I was driving to a meeting the other night and a STRONG FORCE came over me which compelled me to turn my radio to the local Christian radio station. I haven't listened to another station since then (1 week ago).
I know God is calling, but I don't know if I am willing to follow. I am not 100% "sold" on this, and am concerned that I am just feeling sentimental over the old songs I remember, or that I would simply be turning to Him in a time of strife. And honestly, I don't know if I am willing to change what needs changing in order to follow Him...so here I sit on the fence...
I was Born Again in January 1997 for the 2nd time (had been baptized when I was 12 but a short time later turned my back on God). It was a very glorious, amazing, eye-opening, heartwarming, and loving time of my life. I loved the Lord and sincerely gave my life to Him. Though I was married to an unbeliever, I became very active in the church and Christian community.
In 2004 I began drifting away, and was having many unanswered questions about Christianity. Questions my pastor or others could not answer and I could not come to terms with. In 2005 I finally filed for divorce to end an abusive marriage, and that is when I left the church and God behind. Many sermons had been preached on God's disdain for divorce, and I knew I couldn't stay there and go through the divorce at the same time.
Since that time I have gone WAY to the other side, so-to-speak. I had reached the conclusion that I had been "brainwashed" (not REALLY, but figuratively) into believing all that Christian stuff. I won't even get into some lifestyle choices I've made over these past years. But...for reasons unbeknownst to me, I was driving to a meeting the other night and a STRONG FORCE came over me which compelled me to turn my radio to the local Christian radio station. I haven't listened to another station since then (1 week ago).
I know God is calling, but I don't know if I am willing to follow. I am not 100% "sold" on this, and am concerned that I am just feeling sentimental over the old songs I remember, or that I would simply be turning to Him in a time of strife. And honestly, I don't know if I am willing to change what needs changing in order to follow Him...so here I sit on the fence...