One time I sat down and thought hard about opening my heart to the Lord. This bothered me, because I never truly felt like I was completely opening up. I felt that there was some small part of me holding back, afraid of what might happen.
I thought about that song..."Open the eyes of my heart, Lord...open the eyes of my heart, I want to see You..."
I closed my eyes and raised my hands and started singing. Then it happened. It actually tickled. I was tickling in my heart, and then felt complete joy and comfort and rest and ease. I started to cry and just thanked Him over and over and over.
When I was done, it felt like the hard shell that was around my heart was cracked off bit by bit, and I could feel new, fresh, clean, cool air over my heart. I felt renewed.
I was thinking with my brain and feeling with my fingertips for so long, I knew nothing else. But now, the protective coating over my soul had been shed off and what was underneathe was fresh and new and smooth.
I can do this any time that I want to now, immediately. I can just open the eyes of my heart. I can breathe through my heart now. I can think with my heart. It's so easy, I wonder what made it so hard to begin with.
Thanks, Bo...this felt good.
