I never knew how dark and lonely life could seem. To be isolated in a state with no family or friends. My first child on the way which, I'm very excited about my baby boy. To have believed that when I met my now husband it was God's way of restoring everything I had lost in my 25 years of life. Only to discover everything that glitters isn't gold. I packed up my entire life and moved to where my husband is stationed. We got married and I conceived my baby boy. Seems like the proper steps in life to take. Except I have NEVER in my life been through so much pain and turmoil. He's like a bad spirit that has sucked the life out of me. The lies, deception, manipulation, infidelity, isolation, and pain I've endured only God can fix. I'm alive right now because I have a reason to live for my unborn child. After only 8 months of marriage and 3 months away from my child being born I've gathered the strength to say I love myself more than to allow anyone to treat me like this. Everyday it's a battleground in my mind wondering how will I make it!