I have been watching this show called Nurse Jackie. Everytime I watch it I was left angry and frustrated.I wanted a happy ending, but in life at times their is no happy ending. Why couldn't she understand and see all the people she was hurting? Selfishness at its purest form. Her feelings for others didn't matter anymore. It was no longer her life to live. It had transcended into what pleases her body.
What makes you happy. Was the modo. Then I started to think. Her addiction isn't out of the ordinary. I'm no better. Don't we all have addictions? Some just easier to get then others.
Our bodies just naturally work that way. Like the lady who can't say no to sugar. A cake is easily purchased at any store. That craving for coffee every morning as soon as we get up. Yes, we see that outward appearance of a junkie, But the same is with a food addict or an anorexic, fitness guru.... Isn't it all the same! The bodies many addictions in different forms some more socially/ legally accepted than others.
I've tried being a vegetarian. I would love to be able to nourish my body properly. But when it comes down to it. 4 hours later I give in. I start craving that nice perfectly seasoned barbecued.... or that chocolate cupcake. Then I try to eating my Salad. By this point I have made myself nauseous.
Because that's not what my body wanted. Or try to down that yummy raw lasagna. Only to have withdrawal like symptoms.... :/ I try mentally preparing myself "it's good for you" "eat it" yet my body seems to be on a different self destructive path. Chips?
Realizing that my body just at times doesn't want to do what I want but what it wants. Be it an addiction to pills,alcohol, food,excercise,sex, a person...
It makes being a christian come to perspective. The individuality that is your body and soul. Two distinct things in one. Fighting the urges of whatever might be your poison will never work. Coming to the realization that battling it alone won't work. You will lose.
Learning to take it all and lay it down before the Lord is the only thing. Let Him take over the battle. So simple yet so hard and difficult to do at times. Yet it's the only thing that will help you win. Nothing can compare. No one or nothing can fill. No five step program. Just call out to the Lord and pray.
May all the Glory be to God,
Serene58
What makes you happy. Was the modo. Then I started to think. Her addiction isn't out of the ordinary. I'm no better. Don't we all have addictions? Some just easier to get then others.
Our bodies just naturally work that way. Like the lady who can't say no to sugar. A cake is easily purchased at any store. That craving for coffee every morning as soon as we get up. Yes, we see that outward appearance of a junkie, But the same is with a food addict or an anorexic, fitness guru.... Isn't it all the same! The bodies many addictions in different forms some more socially/ legally accepted than others.
I've tried being a vegetarian. I would love to be able to nourish my body properly. But when it comes down to it. 4 hours later I give in. I start craving that nice perfectly seasoned barbecued.... or that chocolate cupcake. Then I try to eating my Salad. By this point I have made myself nauseous.
Because that's not what my body wanted. Or try to down that yummy raw lasagna. Only to have withdrawal like symptoms.... :/ I try mentally preparing myself "it's good for you" "eat it" yet my body seems to be on a different self destructive path. Chips?
Realizing that my body just at times doesn't want to do what I want but what it wants. Be it an addiction to pills,alcohol, food,excercise,sex, a person...
It makes being a christian come to perspective. The individuality that is your body and soul. Two distinct things in one. Fighting the urges of whatever might be your poison will never work. Coming to the realization that battling it alone won't work. You will lose.
Learning to take it all and lay it down before the Lord is the only thing. Let Him take over the battle. So simple yet so hard and difficult to do at times. Yet it's the only thing that will help you win. Nothing can compare. No one or nothing can fill. No five step program. Just call out to the Lord and pray.
May all the Glory be to God,
Serene58
and after trying to beat it in my own strength I really did have to cry out to the Lord and confess Lord I can’t do this on my own
as I was enjoying smoking again and felt the fags were helping me through stress, but yes when I did finally cry out to the Lord, I stopped struggling and have now given up the habit for 4 or 5 years now….. And I dare not trouble them fags again...lest a greater addiction come of my disobedient.