Indeed -When I became fully aware that all my thoughts were of evil all the time. When I noticed all my actions, and words were for my own selfish motives, and gain.
When I discovered there was nothing I could do to stop any of these things no matter how much I wanted to. I surrendered, when I called out to Jesus to take my life completely, and do with it as he sees, and to make me an instrument of righteousness in the hands of a Holy God. I am now not my own, for I have been bought with a price, and he has marked me as his own by giving me His Holy Spirit as a guarantee that I am his forever.