Why Do I feel so alone?
I'm in my third year of college. Last year was quite possibly the worst year academically I've had in my life. I grew up in a small town and went to the same school for 13 years and literally had friends from the age of 6 up to now (i'm nearly 21)When I got into college at first I focused so much on my schoolwork that I just didnt' make any friends. I was fine with this at first, (i made deans list) but now I am quite lonely and bored. Last semester I did horribly and just came shy of being on academic probation. (how could someone possibly go from being on deans list to nearly being on academic probation?) I have prayed and prayed for God to help me, give me strength, help me to cope with this loneliness/depression. Why do I feel this way?? I have no reason to feel this way, yet I feel a war waging in me and I'm desperate. I know i'm about to do something foolish. I gave my life to Christ and I love him, but then why do I feel so alone?? I just need God to speak to my heart and I need to hear him, I need his guidance and I feel so confused. I recently met someone who says they go to Church, I don't know if this person isa Christian though. I've noticed that since I've begun speaking to this person my behavior is changing, the way I talk and the things I think about. I'm ashamed. I don't blame this person, but I know i'm changing and not going in a good direction. Yet at the same time, I find myself enjoying the attention that I am receiving from this person. I would be lying if I said I didn't enjoy having someone to talk to atleast. I am worried, I need help and I really need God to speak to me and help me because I know it should be so easy to just walk away from this situation, but its not. I know that there is not a human being in this world that can truly fufill me, I know this in my heart. So why do I feel so confused, what should I do? I need help. Please pray for me.
I'm in my third year of college. Last year was quite possibly the worst year academically I've had in my life. I grew up in a small town and went to the same school for 13 years and literally had friends from the age of 6 up to now (i'm nearly 21)When I got into college at first I focused so much on my schoolwork that I just didnt' make any friends. I was fine with this at first, (i made deans list) but now I am quite lonely and bored. Last semester I did horribly and just came shy of being on academic probation. (how could someone possibly go from being on deans list to nearly being on academic probation?) I have prayed and prayed for God to help me, give me strength, help me to cope with this loneliness/depression. Why do I feel this way?? I have no reason to feel this way, yet I feel a war waging in me and I'm desperate. I know i'm about to do something foolish. I gave my life to Christ and I love him, but then why do I feel so alone?? I just need God to speak to my heart and I need to hear him, I need his guidance and I feel so confused. I recently met someone who says they go to Church, I don't know if this person isa Christian though. I've noticed that since I've begun speaking to this person my behavior is changing, the way I talk and the things I think about. I'm ashamed. I don't blame this person, but I know i'm changing and not going in a good direction. Yet at the same time, I find myself enjoying the attention that I am receiving from this person. I would be lying if I said I didn't enjoy having someone to talk to atleast. I am worried, I need help and I really need God to speak to me and help me because I know it should be so easy to just walk away from this situation, but its not. I know that there is not a human being in this world that can truly fufill me, I know this in my heart. So why do I feel so confused, what should I do? I need help. Please pray for me.