Sometimes, when I think about God and His presence, I feel a sensation. But it only lasts for a second. I have concluded that I don't completely believe that He is there, even though I know He is.I often quote this.. After I became a father, the Lord has been teaching many spiritual things through my daughter
I still remember holding her when she was so tiny.. I used to talk with her so much.. I would tell her all my office stories, everything that happened that day, how much I love her, what she means for me.. All she would do is - look somewhere else kicking her legs and hands! We all start spiritually the same way.. The Lord is holding us and speaking to us every moment.. Lord never changes.. It is our attention level and maturity which changes..
Now she is 3 years old.. We have amazing conversation now If I tell her I love her, she would give me a hug and kiss and say I love you too daddy.. Has anything changed from me? Not much! It is her maturity which has changed..
You have sound advice from everyone.. As you continue to dwell in his Word, meditate His Word, spend time on prayers, you would slowly start feeling His presence.. You will learn to start hearing to His voice.. It is an amazing experience.. You would realize, He has been trying to speak to you all the time! Perspective on things will change.. You might have come across the same situation before.. You will have a whole different meaning to that.. For example, my prayers were so different few years back.. These days when I have a need, it is not just putting a petition and moving on.. I worship the Lord and start praying about it with an open heart.. Because I want to hear from Lord what He has to say about it.. It may not be an audible voice.. But you will know the difference.. There might be seasons where you may not feel the closeness. Expect a little shaking to get things back to normal
Also, yesterday, I thought that my mom was running late. Something inside me told me to get her shoes. However, it was not like a thought, because I felt a sensation. It felt powerful. I hesitated, but I though, "what if it really is God?" So I offered to get her shoes for her. She told me she was not late in the first place, but I don't care. How does it feel when God talks to you?