As a new Christian, there are still things that I have sown in my past. For example, before I was saved in April of 2013, I was obviously doing things and making decision that were mine alone and had nothing to do with what God wanted. However, since having been saved, will I reap what I have sown in the past or will God help me to now make it right since now live and make decisions for what He wants?
For example, I started going back to school for my doctorate in October of 2010 (and I’m still in school), 3 years before I was saved. Since this was my decision and not God’s, will I reap what I have sown from this or will God help guide me through the rest of this process even though it was not His will? Does anyone else have experience with this situation?
My brother,
Galatians 6:7 says........
"Be not deceived, God is not mocked, for whatsoever a man soweth that shall he also reap".
Will I pay for something I did 5 years ago??? Maybe, maybe not.
If you robbed a store and got away with it, you would be living in fear that any time the door bell rang, it could be the police.
That does not go away.
If you got a woman pregnant out of wed lock, that baby is still alive and belongs to you.
So in essence, we do pay for things we did in the past. But we do not have to allow the guilt to eat us up. That is why we come to Christ for the foregivness of sins and He says that He will toss them in the deepest part of the ocean never to be seen again.
What I seem to be hearing you say is that in light of what I have done in the past, the kind of family I want, where I can live and in light of what I want to be in terms of my career, I want to be able to serve God so is what I am doing the right thing to do?
If so, That is the kind of thinking which will reveal your motives rather quickly. In decision making, the place to start is measuring your decision against God's moral will. You must measure it against the principles of His Word and also against this penetrating question:.........."Is this the wise thing to do????"
God through His Word has demonstrated that if children of God are willing to be honest and to the best of their ability, do what He wants them to do, He will intervene if they make faulty decisions. God does not want us to make wrong choices my brother. He is interested in directing and guiding our lives providing wisdom for effective decision making.
If I was giving you advice, I would say to not worry about what color your socks are! That should not be an issue. My wife would argue that but not me. In life, we consider what matters. Who will you marry? Where will you live? Will we buy a home or reant an apartment? Will we have children? Should I continue in school ?
How do we find the answers to those hard questions...........Know the Scriptures! The Scriptures sift, purify, and clear up or thinking process so that we are able to think after God.
Another answer is to have friends in which you can seek wise counsel. Make sure however that they are Godly friends so that they can give Godly wisdom to you.
Bless you know and go out there and get it done brother!