I am angry at God. I graduated a year ago from college, and I am single, I don't know anyone and I can't find people to meet. I want to have a family, but I'm still living at home working in a job i hate. I started asking God a few years ago to help me
Want his will for my life. I pray that he will draw me close to him, strengthen my faith, but I have wanted to be married for so long- so I ask him for peace. Every day. I ask him help me to be content, but it gets worse, no matter how I try to distract myself. A few years ago, I was addicted to porn. I got professional Christian help, and I've not looked at porn for 4 years. I wonder if he punishes me for looking at it, even though I confessed and repent. Maybe He will not let me get married now. But I'd rather die than be single any longer- I pray he kill me. But I could not be with another person with this anger. But I can't not be angry. For I ask him for marriage more than I have asked for anything else, more than I've wanted anything else. And there is no hope for that. I am angry at everyone I know who is married.
Want his will for my life. I pray that he will draw me close to him, strengthen my faith, but I have wanted to be married for so long- so I ask him for peace. Every day. I ask him help me to be content, but it gets worse, no matter how I try to distract myself. A few years ago, I was addicted to porn. I got professional Christian help, and I've not looked at porn for 4 years. I wonder if he punishes me for looking at it, even though I confessed and repent. Maybe He will not let me get married now. But I'd rather die than be single any longer- I pray he kill me. But I could not be with another person with this anger. But I can't not be angry. For I ask him for marriage more than I have asked for anything else, more than I've wanted anything else. And there is no hope for that. I am angry at everyone I know who is married.