Not too long ago something happened with me.
Ever since then I've been a different person, the same but different at the same time. One of those differences is fear. I've become a lot more afraid since then, especially about death. Somehow that day was able to rewire my entire brain so both my concious and subconcious mind constantly thinks about death, specifically me dying. It keeps bringing up me dying soon, mainly specifying a heart attack, considering that day had to do with pressure in my chest (which was actually stomach related).
I know God says not to worry about tomorrow because we have enough to deal with today, but this has been a daily thing now. I've been praying about it a lot and these thoughts STILL will not leave me. It's like fleas on a dog.
Does anyone know of any way I can stop this? Especially the subconscious part, since that's a lot harder to tell it to stop since it's not thoughts you can control on the fly the way we can with our conscious part of the brain.
And then I think about death in general. I just can't wrap my head around it. I really don't understand it and hate the fact that it's not something you can control (for the most part). I mean just look at all these deaths that happened just in the last week. Sometimes it even makes me think that thought we as Christians don't mean to think, the "what if after you die, that's it" thought. Of course we know better, but still can't help but think it sometimes.
I just want to stop thinking I'm going to die all the time, I want to stop being anxious all the time. I just want to be normal. I can't even get a job at the moment because just leaving the house causes me to burp a lot and the longer I'm out, that's when the chest pressure starts.
Ever since then I've been a different person, the same but different at the same time. One of those differences is fear. I've become a lot more afraid since then, especially about death. Somehow that day was able to rewire my entire brain so both my concious and subconcious mind constantly thinks about death, specifically me dying. It keeps bringing up me dying soon, mainly specifying a heart attack, considering that day had to do with pressure in my chest (which was actually stomach related).
I know God says not to worry about tomorrow because we have enough to deal with today, but this has been a daily thing now. I've been praying about it a lot and these thoughts STILL will not leave me. It's like fleas on a dog.
Does anyone know of any way I can stop this? Especially the subconscious part, since that's a lot harder to tell it to stop since it's not thoughts you can control on the fly the way we can with our conscious part of the brain.
And then I think about death in general. I just can't wrap my head around it. I really don't understand it and hate the fact that it's not something you can control (for the most part). I mean just look at all these deaths that happened just in the last week. Sometimes it even makes me think that thought we as Christians don't mean to think, the "what if after you die, that's it" thought. Of course we know better, but still can't help but think it sometimes.
I just want to stop thinking I'm going to die all the time, I want to stop being anxious all the time. I just want to be normal. I can't even get a job at the moment because just leaving the house causes me to burp a lot and the longer I'm out, that's when the chest pressure starts.
