Discovering myself

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Since I've been isolated I think a lot. It's amazing how you can be so alone in life that you have no choice but to talk to God about everything and rely on him. I feel so alone I can't wait for my son to be born. I feel like he will complete me once he's here.
 

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Since I've been isolated I think a lot. It's amazing how you can be so alone in life that you have no choice but to talk to God about everything and rely on him. I feel so alone I can't wait for my son to be born. I feel like he will complete me once he's here.
Yes Mam this will be a wonderful completion once he is in this world and in your loving arms.

Now I want to pass this along to you as well. I have learned this the slow and stubborn way. No matter how awesomely wonderful something may be and no matter how complete we might think we will be.......if there be any areas of our lives or our selves left undealt with, especially where God is concerned, well it won't last long or be as complete as it could.

Make the choice now that come hell or high water, you will make and keep God first in your life and in your sons life. Then follow through and just do it.

Believe me when I say, it is so worth it!!
Congratulations and may God bless, anoint and use your son for His glory.
Praying Psalm 91 over you both.
Blessings
FCJ
 
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You are so right I totally agree. Many times when things start looking up again we kind of stop praying as much and giving God his one on one. I want to continue to seek him faithfully through the good and the bad. I'm stepping out on faith by choosing to separate from my husband at 6 months pregnant. I feel like we are unequally yoked.
 

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You are so right I totally agree. Many times when things start looking up again we kind of stop praying as much and giving God his one on one. I want to continue to seek him faithfully through the good and the bad. I'm stepping out on faith by choosing to separate from my husband at 6 months pregnant. I feel like we are unequally yoked.
Wonderful heart you have there. Now remember it is way to easy to get ahead of God. Some times we begin to see or understand a little He is doing and jump out to far to fast and get out some place He was Not taking us.... shew been there more then I care to admit.

Just move within His leading. You won't miss a thing.
Blessings
FCJ
 
#5
That's very true. I'm taking it one day at a time. I never ever saw myself in this position. Makes you very vulnerable actually. I know that I have to trust his will and know he makes no mistake. I believe I stepped out his will by marrying this man especially without consulting him first.
 

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That's very true. I'm taking it one day at a time. I never ever saw myself in this position. Makes you very vulnerable actually. I know that I have to trust his will and know he makes no mistake. I believe I stepped out his will by marrying this man especially without consulting him first.
That's what I did except He told me no in many ways but hey we know better. Oh I found out how wrong that thinking is.
And He said no because He loved me and wanted to spare me from a horrible situation.
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FCJ
 

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How did you know he was telling you no?
Well not so sure I knew for sure it was God telling me at that time because I was to much wanting it.

Thoughts that lined up with His word.
Thoughts that connected to a deep gut feeling or knowing.

Out of the blue find my self listening to some one teach (sermon) that got my attention then spoke directly to me.

Other Christians share something on their heart that God lead them to say that only backed up what I had already heard or felt.

A brother grabbing me in the church and pushing me towards the door and tells me they drove 2 vehicles to the church and the van was right out side the door running with the door open. Get in it and go now!!

Lol......guess what I did........ 5 years of hell on earth......
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FCJ
 

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That's a tough place to be. Especially in these days we really need to be fine tuned into the Holy Spirit, knowing His voice from all other voices, thoughts and feelings.

I have been learning in this area more and more this past year and I have come to understand a lot of what people say is God is not really God at all.

The Holy Spirit will not tell you something at odds with the Word of God.
Blessings
FCJ
 

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Since I've been isolated I think a lot. It's amazing how you can be so alone in life that you have no choice but to talk to God about everything and rely on him. I feel so alone I can't wait for my son to be born. I feel like he will complete me once he's here.
As I have been praying for you... chaplin A.L. Downing keeps popping up in my mind to share with you. So here is a link about him and his ministry.... praying it blesses you. The biggest thing that sticks out at me (besides his being a good and anointed preacher) is that they are in South Carolina and minister a lot to the enlisted men and women who are serving our country.

http://aldowningministries.org/#2736

Blessings to you sister :)
Praying God's wisdom (James 1: 5) for you and your life
 

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I know it can be difficult, but you as a praying wife have a lot of clout with the Father where your husband is concerned. Yes you might be unequally yoked, but as ps 3:3 says...For thou o Lord are a shield for me...my glory and the lifter of my head.. .. God has promised to be your shield and protector, and as you pray and intercede and stand in the gap in faith that God will turn the head of your household around.... you can see great things. For God will move heaven and earth to protect you and take care of you, as long as you completely walk in all His ways... especially love and forgiveness, and keeping all your words in line with His Word. God has so graciously been teaching me great trust in this area, and the meaning of it.
 
#14
CTurtle: I agree with everything you saying. It's to the point now where my husband makes me feel lower than low. I get no love and affection. It's almost like he's heartless. Sometimes I wonder if the marines did that to him? The infidelity does something to a woman's soul. It's like I can't get over it. It haunts me till this day! The respect been out the window for me before we married. Like an idiot I still married him.
 

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CTurtle: I agree with everything you saying. It's to the point now where my husband makes me feel lower than low. I get no love and affection. It's almost like he's heartless. Sometimes I wonder if the marines did that to him? The infidelity does something to a woman's soul. It's like I can't get over it. It haunts me till this day! The respect been out the window for me before we married. Like an idiot I still married him.
I fully understand. I was in a marriage for 15 years, to a man I didn't respect. And had i had the information that i have now, it would not have ended so badly.
 

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CTurtle: I agree with everything you saying. It's to the point now where my husband makes me feel lower than low. I get no love and affection. It's almost like he's heartless. Sometimes I wonder if the marines did that to him? The infidelity does something to a woman's soul. It's like I can't get over it. It haunts me till this day! The respect been out the window for me before we married. Like an idiot I still married him.
Just wanted to add this. It might not have been in your best interests to join into this covenant of marriage with this man but never the less you have and now you will need to honor it under God. No mam I did not say you have to run back to the abuse but I am saying you need to spend good quality time with the Father in this.

Let Him direct your paths and simply do as He says. Far to many times our own understanding gets in the way and clouds our thinking. Friends and family may say your a fool to do this or that but in truth, the foolish thing is anything other then what God has said.

By doing things His way even when they may not seem right, this enables Him to work on your behalf. See as Cturtle has said.......you as the wife have a lot of pull in this with the Father But you have got to do it His way and walk in Love, Forgiveness, Faith, Patience and Endurance. Standing Strong with out wavering in His Word.
Blessings
FCJ
 

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I feel like I'm forces to separate it isn't optional. If I really love myself I have to leave him but I don't want to.
This pressure your feeling is more than likely the enemy. The devil does not want your marriage to work, and he does not want your husband freed from his traps. he wants to keep him bound by sin. And if he can pressure you into calling it quits, then God will have to figure out a different way to free your husband from the devil's snares.

CTurtle are you saying you think I should pray my way through the marriage since I entered it already?
Yup. I sure do. If you will trust God to turn this all around, and talk only the Word, and base all your feelings and emotions on the Word...God can work a miracle right in front of your eyes...if you desire.

Take some time and see where your heart really lies. Do you have any love still, and are you ready to stand in faith, fighting for your marriage?