I don't believe I can actually comprehend your lonelyness but I know Jesus does because he felt totally forsaken on the cross. You may feel alone but you are not. Just keep praying and reading the Word.
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Sylvanus said:Just to say:
WasLost, I know you know, but I'll say it anyway:
Christianity is not about belief, it's not about doctrine, it's not about understanding, it's not about anything eslse than that: John 10:27.
"My sheep hear my voice" (John 10:1-15)
I know you know WasLost that inside of you, within your innermost, dwells goodness, one such that you CANNOT ignore. This goodness is what has made you return to your shepherd in the first place, and it will again one day, if only you hear. I say this because you said you are leaving your faith, which faith was triggered by the recognition of God's righteousness by the very goodness that dwells within you. Your conscience is your beacon, and that beacon confirmed it to you. This is how you recognised the voice of our Shepherd.
Disregarding religion, and all that comes with it, all the writings in the world and all the words of others, you will never be able to ignore the beacon pointing to the light of the goodness you have inside. (I know, I've tried )
God is most patient, and knowing, and appreciative of your circumstances. He will not leave you, but will help you through it (wheither you thank Him for it or not), and He will feed your heart without you knowing it.
Sort your life out brother, put everything to rest, and recuperate from it, howeverlong it might take, life is tough, I know, I do, but if you do nothing about your faith during that time, at least, once in a while, when you remember it, give a little thank to God, even if a quick one, once in a while, for you know not if it is Him that helped. (Romans 1:21).
............and one day, you may hear His voice again :shepherd:
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