So what does one do when you have actually have grown a fear of going to God's house (Hebrews 10:25)?
Right now really feeling under the weather and should have faith for God's healing but find I really don't. I bring this up because I find myself not faithful but double minded, James 1:5-6
Hence my fear of going to church, I believe God will bless others but not myself.
Sounds to me like you are not realizing how much God loves you (1Jn 2:15b). Lots of people (like me) have grown up thinkin God is up in the sky waiting for us to mess up, so He can zap us. But that thinking I found out was in great error.
It's funny that you use James 1:5-6.....for the beginning of that verse says that if anyone lacks wisdom, let him ask our generous God and He will give it to you, and not rebuke you for asking. Try reading 1Jn 4:7-5:20 and proverbs 4:20-27.
Start by renewing your mind to God's love.for you and His desire for you to be whole....and allow the Love of The Father wash over you (washing of the water of the Word), as you feed your spirit His Words of life and peace.
Father, we lift up jj483 to You. Thank You that he is Your sheep and he knows Your voice of peace and comfort. Surround him with Your love and grace and peace that passes all of his understanding. Show him how precious he is to you.
Fear in the Name of Jesus, we bind you from operating in jj's life, for he has been covered by the blood of Jesus and set free from the curse of the law. In Jesus Name, Amen.
I leave you with one Scripture that God gave me some time back....1 Peter 5:12b.....My purpose in writing to you is to encourage you and assure you that what you are experiencing is truly part of God's grace for you. Stand firm in this grace.
Fear is not part of the grace, for God did not and will not use fear for any reason. But I do believe He is leading you to paths of righteousness, showing you the things in your life that are hindering His closeness to you. He is trying to show you His love and greatness, and bring you to a deeper level of trust in Him...thus deepening your relationship with Him.
Grace is God's overwhelming desire to treat you as if sin never happened. So walk in this grace
God bless