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I lost my mom suddenly and unexpectedly at the age of 55 on April 10, 2012. To make a very long story short(er) - I have been in the "shock" phase since. I suffer from Major Depression, Panic Attacks, Generalized Anxiety and Tension Headaches. I live a completely different life than when my mom was alive. I use to have a relationship with my husband and kids. Now I think we live in the same house and they listen to me cry all day. Since my mom passed I have questioned whether there is truly a Heaven. My worst fear in the world is that I will never see her again.
I have a Master's in Leadership and had a really good job. I no longer work, no longer work out (I've gained 50 pounds), and all I do is sit around the house and feel sorry for myself.
Can someone please point me in the right direction. I need help!