New here...need serious prayer
Good day friends. My name is Eric Wright. I've been a Christian for about four years. I was in a pretty bad condition when i was saved, and my life before was going down a path i never want to go down again. I've learned alot in these four years, alot more than i'd say the majority of Christians learn. I joined the US NAVY and am currently in IT (Information Systems Technician) A-school (where i learn my job).
Before i left for basic training four months ago i knew and felt that my relationship with Christ was heading in the a very awesome direction. For the first time in my life i literally...literally...felt the holy spirit take me over. It didn't occur until some very specific things happened in my life (consequently directly out of II Chronicles 7:14) even though it didn't last long, oh i wanted it to last longer, i knew God was there as He always was.
There's always been one problem i've dealt with that i to this day cannot seem to get rid of. i know it's something that many, many, people deal with and with this society it's very difficult to deal with. As i said before, before i entered basic training for the navy i was very close to God and only could imagine myself growing closer. Now, four months later, and in fact not that far from the time i got there, i couldn't feel farther away. I have barely read my Bible at all, i haven't prayed but maybe twice the entire time, and the environment i live in constantly is absolutely horrible.
I've never been more disgusted with our society than now. I see constantly hypocrites claiming to be Christians yet committing acts that are obvious sins against God...yet they find absolutely no fault with it, neither agree nor listen to any of my own pleas. Even though i know of my relationship, i am not afraid to say: i am struggling very badly and am in need of great prayer. i don't need counseling, just prayer. I know exactly what i need to do, as i've been down this road SO many times in my new-born life.
i need to humble myself, i need to pray, i need to seek God's approval, and i need to surrender myself again to God. my salvation, as Jesus says in Matthew 10:38, depends on my surrender and my relationship with God depends on my obedience to Him as in II Chronicles 7:14.
I'm surrounded by CONSTANT cursing everywhere i go, by CONSTANT sexual conversations and lusts...this society is completely revert from God...it's a complete reverse of God's commandment and even dares to claim itself as part of God when it is clearly against God in every form and fashion. i can't stand it, i absolutely can't stand it. I don't get much sleep, i have to study very hard just to pass a test every week, i have to keep my room spotless and make sure all of my uniforms are on spot (no stains AT ALL, no wrinkles AT ALL, perfect military creases, and mirror-shined boots at all times) and to add to that, i have to worry about passing my PT (Personal Fitness) exams (which i'm not good at), and have to fit time in that for myself and God.
I get up every morning at 4 am and go to sleep at 10 pm (12 pm on weekends). I have no choice, i can't go to bed early because we have to muster (kind of like gather together and take role like in class) at those times and can't miss the muster or we're in deep trouble. So i HAVE to go to sleep no earlier than 10 or 12, and i HAVE to wake up no later than 4...that's 6-4 hours of sleep, and that's just if i go to sleep directly after the muster...many times i have to study, clean, or wash cloths...or even have watch.
I can't function without proper sleep, i just can't do it. I get so tired my eyes start crossing and if i don't get enough sleep i'll even pass out. i am just physically unable to survive off of that much sleep and this stress level. perfection is not achievable, and near perfection is nearly impossible. hence i turn to the only place i can...God.
I've turned away from him, i've lived according to my own rules, done my own thing, and attempted to live off of my own energy, it isn't going to work and i know it. please pray for me as i deal with my old problem: lust and hard core pornography. it's not something i'm proud of admitting, and as a matter a fact, this is the very first time i've even mentioned pornography as an issue even though it always was, but there is no point in hiding it any longer, i have done my deeds and have to stand up to them, good or bad.
getting rid of myself as Galatians 2:20-21 and Romans 6 details very clearly is difficult by itself, but doing it in the military is nearly impossible. I thought i'd have it easier...not so. The military is like a hub of sin, just a bunch of people with so many different beliefs and wants all bunched up together. In my A-School especially since the navy is downsizing, there's not much for a church. i need something more concrete, i'd like to have fellowship with a REAL Genuine Christian...just ONE! I've yet to find a single one (well, scratch that, i found one in boot camp, but only AFTER we left, so i'm no longer in contact with him) true Christian, someone who doesn't claim FAITH (total trust and surrender to God) falsely.
I need a real human contact, someone to talk to, hang out with, get away from this false reality people have set themselves up with, but it isn't looking likely. Please pray for me, please pray for my personal issues, please give me some materials that i can get off the net (i don't have money to buy books and stuff, sry) that may help me. thank you and God Bless.
In Him,
Eric Wright
Good day friends. My name is Eric Wright. I've been a Christian for about four years. I was in a pretty bad condition when i was saved, and my life before was going down a path i never want to go down again. I've learned alot in these four years, alot more than i'd say the majority of Christians learn. I joined the US NAVY and am currently in IT (Information Systems Technician) A-school (where i learn my job).
Before i left for basic training four months ago i knew and felt that my relationship with Christ was heading in the a very awesome direction. For the first time in my life i literally...literally...felt the holy spirit take me over. It didn't occur until some very specific things happened in my life (consequently directly out of II Chronicles 7:14) even though it didn't last long, oh i wanted it to last longer, i knew God was there as He always was.
There's always been one problem i've dealt with that i to this day cannot seem to get rid of. i know it's something that many, many, people deal with and with this society it's very difficult to deal with. As i said before, before i entered basic training for the navy i was very close to God and only could imagine myself growing closer. Now, four months later, and in fact not that far from the time i got there, i couldn't feel farther away. I have barely read my Bible at all, i haven't prayed but maybe twice the entire time, and the environment i live in constantly is absolutely horrible.
I've never been more disgusted with our society than now. I see constantly hypocrites claiming to be Christians yet committing acts that are obvious sins against God...yet they find absolutely no fault with it, neither agree nor listen to any of my own pleas. Even though i know of my relationship, i am not afraid to say: i am struggling very badly and am in need of great prayer. i don't need counseling, just prayer. I know exactly what i need to do, as i've been down this road SO many times in my new-born life.
i need to humble myself, i need to pray, i need to seek God's approval, and i need to surrender myself again to God. my salvation, as Jesus says in Matthew 10:38, depends on my surrender and my relationship with God depends on my obedience to Him as in II Chronicles 7:14.
I'm surrounded by CONSTANT cursing everywhere i go, by CONSTANT sexual conversations and lusts...this society is completely revert from God...it's a complete reverse of God's commandment and even dares to claim itself as part of God when it is clearly against God in every form and fashion. i can't stand it, i absolutely can't stand it. I don't get much sleep, i have to study very hard just to pass a test every week, i have to keep my room spotless and make sure all of my uniforms are on spot (no stains AT ALL, no wrinkles AT ALL, perfect military creases, and mirror-shined boots at all times) and to add to that, i have to worry about passing my PT (Personal Fitness) exams (which i'm not good at), and have to fit time in that for myself and God.
I get up every morning at 4 am and go to sleep at 10 pm (12 pm on weekends). I have no choice, i can't go to bed early because we have to muster (kind of like gather together and take role like in class) at those times and can't miss the muster or we're in deep trouble. So i HAVE to go to sleep no earlier than 10 or 12, and i HAVE to wake up no later than 4...that's 6-4 hours of sleep, and that's just if i go to sleep directly after the muster...many times i have to study, clean, or wash cloths...or even have watch.
I can't function without proper sleep, i just can't do it. I get so tired my eyes start crossing and if i don't get enough sleep i'll even pass out. i am just physically unable to survive off of that much sleep and this stress level. perfection is not achievable, and near perfection is nearly impossible. hence i turn to the only place i can...God.
I've turned away from him, i've lived according to my own rules, done my own thing, and attempted to live off of my own energy, it isn't going to work and i know it. please pray for me as i deal with my old problem: lust and hard core pornography. it's not something i'm proud of admitting, and as a matter a fact, this is the very first time i've even mentioned pornography as an issue even though it always was, but there is no point in hiding it any longer, i have done my deeds and have to stand up to them, good or bad.
getting rid of myself as Galatians 2:20-21 and Romans 6 details very clearly is difficult by itself, but doing it in the military is nearly impossible. I thought i'd have it easier...not so. The military is like a hub of sin, just a bunch of people with so many different beliefs and wants all bunched up together. In my A-School especially since the navy is downsizing, there's not much for a church. i need something more concrete, i'd like to have fellowship with a REAL Genuine Christian...just ONE! I've yet to find a single one (well, scratch that, i found one in boot camp, but only AFTER we left, so i'm no longer in contact with him) true Christian, someone who doesn't claim FAITH (total trust and surrender to God) falsely.
I need a real human contact, someone to talk to, hang out with, get away from this false reality people have set themselves up with, but it isn't looking likely. Please pray for me, please pray for my personal issues, please give me some materials that i can get off the net (i don't have money to buy books and stuff, sry) that may help me. thank you and God Bless.
In Him,
Eric Wright