The scriptures show us that Jesus said that only those who are sick have need of a physician. Not those who are well. That he came to save the lost, because the righteous have no need of a savior.
Of course that is a paraphrase.
Now come along with me and consider this line of thought for a moment if you will. When Jesus told us that no one comes to the father but through him, who then were the righteous that he knew existed in the world prior to his arrival to save those who were lost?
If he knew the righteous were saved before he came to save the lost, how were the righteous saved prior to the arrival of that savior that identified them as one's not needing him?
Further, there is a school of thought that is known as Christian universalism. Meaning the words of Jesus Christ pertain to all people everywhere and in all times.
There is another school of thought that is an offshoot of that sort of speak known as,
Universal Reconciliation.
Meaning that at the cross Jesus, the propitiation for our sins, took upon himself as scriptures describe the sins of the whole world. As the pure unblemished lamb sacrificed on that cross/altar so as to redeem fallen humanity from their Adamic curse of sin.
This is said to be supported by the scripture in Timothy. Jesus is the savior of all people,
especially those who believe.
1 Timothy 4:10 For to this end we toil and strive, because we have our hope set on the living God, who is the Savior of all people, especially of those who believe.
Which hearkens us back to Jesus words when he said he came to save the fallen, because the righteous have no need of a savior. Therefore,after he died on the cross, the righteous he already knew abide upon the earth were joined by those whom Jesus came to save when he died on the cross and took the sins of the world there with him.
Make no mistake, that what I just shared is often considered heresy by those who are scriptural literalists. However, I offer this as a line of thought that does exist within the Christian community in the hope that it may give you some consolation as to there being scripture that supports a different view of things.
Also, remember that Jesus was a Jew. Born into a traditional Jewish family. As such he would have been brought up in the temple and on the Jewish Bible.
In the Jewish Bible there is no fire and brimstone bottomless pit where the lost suffer unto infinity.
Rather, there is Sheol. Which was not eternal, and was simply the void, that place where one is separated from God for a time.
Yeshua, (Hebrew for Joshua, because "Jesus" is Greek), would have been raised in and taught of Sheol. Not a place that the Hebrew scriptures does not describe.
And finally, (hugs) , perhaps the doubts and fears that inspire you to question what you've been taught thus far, those things that seem to smack up against what would seem reasonable in matters of an infinitely benevolent creator, is indeed the Holy Spirit speaking to you.
As is said in Revelation, He stands at the door and knocks...
Nothing is more tragic than someone who ignores that rapping. Because they believe the 'instructions' that describe the right and proper door, and the etiquette for receiving visitors, supersede that what seeks to hail their attention away from the printed manufacturers instructions.
Follow where the spirit leads you. Because you are created in the image and likeness of that one who seeks to get your attention in such ways as doubt and inquiry. If you didn't care to know you wouldn't ask the questions so as to come to the right answers God meant for you to have.
I hope this offering affords you some measure of peace. May God bring you comfort and bring light to your steps.