in desperate need of help.
Hey guys,
Well I used to post here a lot, and have stopped recently in the last few months! Just been very busy I guess, I apologize!
Fitting that I should come back when I need help… basically, a strong sense of God over the past year has faded. I no longer feel I know God or even if he’s there. I know he is… but I constantly can’t get past my own self worthlessness. I feel I am a terrible person and that satan may get a hold of me. It’s terrifying.
I recently got back from a trip to London, something God blessed me with… as I had an amazing, incredible trip. However, since I’ve got back I’ve realized I’m in way under my head… getting a credit card in order to pay for things overseas proved to be a very bad idea. I’m in a fair amount of credit card debt that I’m slowly paying off… also got slapped with a very large phone bill when returning from UK.
I realize being only 18 I was very naïve when going overseas with the costs and everything and it’s just overwhelming juggling debt, work, university etc. But also, because of rushing to work and uni, I think I got caught with a speeding fine (I know, I’m an idiot…) and I think I face losing my license now. This is so devastating to me because I need my license for work and university..and I guess, a strong sense of "what will everyone think".
Being 19, in debt and facing losing my license I am just feeling like my life is falling apart. An amazing start to 2009 with the trip has become my nightmare. I feel so far from God and was wondering if anyone could pray.
I know money issues and being scared about my driving etc is so material and it won't matter in the long run when I'm with God... but I can't help stressing over everything. I wake up constantly feeling sick, can't eat... I have always been an anxious person and when there is something facing me I worry constantly. I have tried turning to God and pray all the time.. But because I don't feel him right now, it's very difficult.
I love God so much, but feel so alone.
I am trusting that whatever happens is God’s will and that if I break human laws I have human consequences… it’s just hard, and I feel like I don’t have a relationship with God anymore. L could you please pray for me...God's blessings.
Hey guys,
Well I used to post here a lot, and have stopped recently in the last few months! Just been very busy I guess, I apologize!
Fitting that I should come back when I need help… basically, a strong sense of God over the past year has faded. I no longer feel I know God or even if he’s there. I know he is… but I constantly can’t get past my own self worthlessness. I feel I am a terrible person and that satan may get a hold of me. It’s terrifying.
I recently got back from a trip to London, something God blessed me with… as I had an amazing, incredible trip. However, since I’ve got back I’ve realized I’m in way under my head… getting a credit card in order to pay for things overseas proved to be a very bad idea. I’m in a fair amount of credit card debt that I’m slowly paying off… also got slapped with a very large phone bill when returning from UK.
I realize being only 18 I was very naïve when going overseas with the costs and everything and it’s just overwhelming juggling debt, work, university etc. But also, because of rushing to work and uni, I think I got caught with a speeding fine (I know, I’m an idiot…) and I think I face losing my license now. This is so devastating to me because I need my license for work and university..and I guess, a strong sense of "what will everyone think".
Being 19, in debt and facing losing my license I am just feeling like my life is falling apart. An amazing start to 2009 with the trip has become my nightmare. I feel so far from God and was wondering if anyone could pray.
I know money issues and being scared about my driving etc is so material and it won't matter in the long run when I'm with God... but I can't help stressing over everything. I wake up constantly feeling sick, can't eat... I have always been an anxious person and when there is something facing me I worry constantly. I have tried turning to God and pray all the time.. But because I don't feel him right now, it's very difficult.
I love God so much, but feel so alone.
I am trusting that whatever happens is God’s will and that if I break human laws I have human consequences… it’s just hard, and I feel like I don’t have a relationship with God anymore. L could you please pray for me...God's blessings.