Wow the insult! I used a DSLR.
Employment bit is a bit of a tough one. Mine own employment record was a touch erratic though I think when employed I was regarded as a hard worker. I thought I'd finally got things straight when what was to turn out to be my conversion from atheist to Christian got in the way. I was working as a white collar worker for a major white goods company at the time, involved with MRP.
Anyway, I managed to get myself into a mental hospital and pick up the label schizophrenic. When I resumed work, it turned nasty on me. My role changed with me being asked to take on other duties and the day I resigned, I was supposed to be sorting out some problem (I think we needed dial backup because the leased line had gone down), attending a meeting and organising a line trial to get some material that had arrived on site not to drawing into production. They revised the staffing after I left.
I'd not foreseen that my mental health history and resignation would make things as difficult as they did.
Anyway, at times since then I've drifted and admit at times not wanted to work. At times I've been trying to learn things, at times I've just been trying to keep myself on my feet. The decision to move back in with my parents was not an easy one, I can assure you.
Last 10 years has really been about fighting alcohol. At the moment I am feeling optimistic. The trip today was part of a plan involving me getting out to new places and new surroundings (I still have difficulties going anywhere on my own and getting to places unfamiliar to me) so it wasn't even entirely a joy trip.
Maybe this time round, things will turn out right. I'd love to have unshakable faith but I've been close to this point before. It's usually the one where what feels like the floodgates of hell start opening.
Sorry to post this btw. but, while I don't deny I've made some stupid and wrong moves myself, what has happened at times since I started to believe in Christ have been nightmarish to me. Whatever form of failure I may be, I have been at points where I've been unable to go further and even if today might seem to be fun (and feel fun to me), for whatever reason, I don't think I've had an easy time.