Hi CTurtle - No, I was not in the military even though 10 years of my career was as electronic engineer for the Navy. I love world history especially military. My first exposure to reading World War history was from reading documentaries and was so shocked by the photos of the atrocities committed against civilians. What were committed were so hideous and evil that minds can not comprehend, babies, children, old and young at the hand of the enemies. My parents told me stories during the war. My dad was in Manila when the Japanese bombed the city, almost died. My Dad passed away in 1995. My Mom is now in nursing home. Up to this date, in her late old age, regardless of the multiple opportunities to accept Christ, my Mom looks at religion with skepticism and cynicism. She does not believe in a loving God. I think she just can not accept these based on her life experience.
Jeremiah 29:11-13 is one of my favorite. A verse I memorize and a verse to remind me God has a plan for me. I use the analogy of a solider for walking this earthly life. I think it is appropriate. A solider has no idea or should question the order he is given, He just have to suppress his doubt and move forward. There are lots of good sharing in this threads, lots of powerful scriptures references. I can force myself to accept what I was told has to be true - that God is just, merciful, loving and has our best interest in heart. But inside my heart, I have a hard time accepting it. I do not know what make me different than those of you who exhibit such conviction. Life goes on, I learned to compartmentize my brain not to dwell on the questions too much.