Losing my Faith and Trust in Him

My name is Brenda and I am new here and not sure what to say. I have lost my faith and am so scared. I feel like God hates me for something. Last year I had nothing but bad luck. Lost my dad and best-friend (my cat-I know many will make fun of this). I had him for 17 years 6 months 12 days, since the day he was born. I lost him exactly 30 days after my dad, who was the world to me. I lost my mom 10 years-ago. I have lost my only income-due to no fault of my own-layoff. I am down to my last few dollars and have tried so many things to bring in an income and nothing is working. I cry myself to sleep just praying and praying every night, and am just hopeless. I am about to lose my car, home and everything. I have prayed and prayed for some type of financial blessing, but it seems everything is against me. I just do not know what to do anymore. I have looked to Him for help and guidance and so far I just feel I did something so sinful, that God has given up on me-and who can blame Him. I am just at such a loss. I feel that I am losing my faith and trust in Him and that does scare me. I just wish He would give me some kind of light to make me a little hopeful at life. Sorry for the rant....
 
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There are times when devil brings oppression to somehow separate us from God. Stay strong in faith. Fix your eyes on Jesus Christ. God will never give up on you. He will never leave you nor forsake you. That is the promise in Word of God. Remember the promise by Jesus. John 6:37 - All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never cast out.

There are times when our unbelief (or lack of trust) blocks us from receiving blessings. There are times when we just go through a rough time. God might permit it to build character and get us prepared to give us something bigger on other side of the troubles

Romans 5 - 3 Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, 4 and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, 5 and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.
 
Hello Brenda and welcome to CFS. We are glad you joined. I am so sorry to read of all the pain you have endured. It's when we don't know what to do and have no were to go when God steps in. Sometimes God allows these things in our lives to bring us closer to Him. So that we can trust only him knowing that there is no one else we can call on or count on. God comforts us but not always by changing the circumstances of our lives, but by changing our attitude toward them. Meaning, you will focus less on your circumstances and more on Him and He will see you through.

1 Corinthians 10:13 No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.
 
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My name is Brenda and I am new here and not sure what to say. I have lost my faith and am so scared. I feel like God hates me for something. Last year I had nothing but bad luck. Lost my dad and best-friend (my cat-I know many will make fun of this). I had him for 17 years 6 months 12 days, since the day he was born. I lost him exactly 30 days after my dad, who was the world to me. I lost my mom 10 years-ago. I have lost my only income-due to no fault of my own-layoff. I am down to my last few dollars and have tried so many things to bring in an income and nothing is working. I cry myself to sleep just praying and praying every night, and am just hopeless. I am about to lose my car, home and everything. I have prayed and prayed for some type of financial blessing, but it seems everything is against me. I just do not know what to do anymore. I have looked to Him for help and guidance and so far I just feel I did something so sinful, that God has given up on me-and who can blame Him. I am just at such a loss. I feel that I am losing my faith and trust in Him and that does scare me. I just wish He would give me some kind of light to make me a little hopeful at life. Sorry for the rant....
Brenda, all Christians have at one time in their life experienced similar things as you, so you are not alone. When the enemy comes in like a flood, like you are experiencing, the Spirit of the Lord will raise a standard against him. If you have not already done so I would submit yourself to the Lord God, and ask for his Wisdom to deal with your problems, and then resist the Devil in the name of Jesus Christ, and he will flee from you. When there is no way the Lord provides a way for you. It might not be how you would like the Lord to help you, but for sure he will "strengthen" you to over come your fears, and settle you down to get through this hard time. I have been in similar situations in my life more than once, and I can tell you that the Lord never let me down as I look back those dark days.
The Apostle Paul who wrote most of the New Testament also had a similar situation.

2Co 1:8.. For we do not want you to be uninformed, brethren, about the affliction and oppressing distress which befell us in [the province of] Asia, how we were so utterly and unbearably weighed down and crushed that we despaired even of life [itself].
2Co 1:9.. Indeed, we felt within ourselves that we had received the [very] sentence of death, but that was to keep us from trusting in and depending on ourselves instead of on God Who raises the dead.

The Lord did not cause what you are going through, and you might feel your life is pretty much over according to your physical eyes. These things that happened to the Apostle Paul became a means that he would see his God move on his behalf as he trusted in the living God who raises the dead. Never give up and seek the Lord as he will reveal himself to you even in this hard time you are going through.
 
Your cat was old. Life expectancy is 12-15 years. God blessed him (you) with long life.

The fact that you lost your mom 10 years ago and now your dad, points to it simply being 'their time'. I know it pains. But always think of them in a better place. Because they are. God is good.

What happened to your friend?

As for income. There are scriptures to put you at ease Matt 6:26. But reality is still painful and very uncomfortable.

My advice is for you to keep looking for a job like your life depends on it....but be at peace. Phil 4:7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

I can give you testimonies all day long of how God has helped people through hell and restored them with great blessings. Hell on earth is seasonal for us Christians.

We just need to always be focused on Jesus and ensure we are His / have His ear John 9:31.
 
Welcome to CFS Brenda! God surely still loves you...read Romans 8:38-39

Can I ask if you have repented of all your past sins? If so according to 1 John 1:9 you have been cleansed by Jesus Blood and He has forgotten it all. The devil is attacking you and then making you think it's God. God always uses His Word to correct us (2 Timothy 3:16), not circumstances.

God bless you with an abundance of grace and peace! I'll be praying for God to make Himself very real to you.
In Christ
 
My name is Brenda and I am new here and not sure what to say. I have lost my faith and am so scared. I feel like God hates me for something. Last year I had nothing but bad luck. Lost my dad and best-friend (my cat-I know many will make fun of this). I had him for 17 years 6 months 12 days, since the day he was born. I lost him exactly 30 days after my dad, who was the world to me. I lost my mom 10 years-ago. I have lost my only income-due to no fault of my own-layoff. I am down to my last few dollars and have tried so many things to bring in an income and nothing is working. I cry myself to sleep just praying and praying every night, and am just hopeless. I am about to lose my car, home and everything. I have prayed and prayed for some type of financial blessing, but it seems everything is against me. I just do not know what to do anymore. I have looked to Him for help and guidance and so far I just feel I did something so sinful, that God has given up on me-and who can blame Him. I am just at such a loss. I feel that I am losing my faith and trust in Him and that does scare me. I just wish He would give me some kind of light to make me a little hopeful at life. Sorry for the rant....

Hello Brenda, welcome to CFS and thank you so much for being so open and honest about the situation you are in. There's simply no way God hates or dislikes you if you believe on Him as your Lord and Saviour. But your situation sounds like similar situations seen in the past so can I ask you, who do you tend to socialise with? The reason I ask is that you could well be in a situation of being sifted like wheat where by permission of God, you're sifted but if this is the case; you'll be being sifted not because of your lack of faith in Him but because you have such a strong one....
 
Sis, somewhere on the road behind you did you pray for a closer walk with Him?
Sis, the only thing we truly need is God.
Being a soldier for God requires that we die to self and let go of our worldly treasures, and seek Him and our treasures in heaven.
Sis, God is going to humble this entire world. He has prepared a way before you and it is in the example of His footsteps we must follow. We can not serve God and mammon.
I assure you sis, you belong to God. He is preparing His people for His return.
Now, had you rather have all the bondage of this world? Or God?
Dedicate your life to Him and be as loyal to seek Him, as you were to go to the world's work place for your money. Sis, God is Spirit and forever; this world is carnal and everything in it is temporary. The flesh lust after this world, it's stuff and the pride of this life. We must deny the flesh and push on in Him, with Him, by Him, FOR HIM.
Sis, I know it is hard for you to look as your situation as a blessing right now, but it indeed is. God has put you in a place to trust only Him, seek Him with your whole heart, and read the Word; it begins renewing the mind by washing of water by the Word. God wants to introduce Himself to you personally.
God bless you sis.
 
Brenda... Please, please, never lose hope or faith. As has been so eloquently put by others in this thread, and by God's word itself, He IS hope.
I am a living testimony to that. Not more than seven years ago, I had nothing but the clothes on my back. I had given up, and in an act of desperation, just placed everything at Jesus's feet, and just let him do it. I now have more than I have ever had in my life. Spiritually and materially as well. If my experiences have taught me anything at all... It is that it only takes a blink of an eye or a beat of your heart for things to change drastically. Never, never lose hope!
 
Brenda... Please, please, never lose hope or faith. As has been so eloquently put by others in this thread, and by God's word itself, He IS hope.
I am a living testimony to that. Not more than seven years ago, I had nothing but the clothes on my back. I had given up, and in an act of desperation, just placed everything at Jesus's feet, and just let him do it. I now have more than I have ever had in my life. Spiritually and materially as well. If my experiences have taught me anything at all... It is that it only takes a blink of an eye or a beat of your heart for things to change drastically. Never, never lose hope!
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