Sorry this will be my last post for a good while.
But I'm really depressed with the reality that is Christianity. It's extremely restrictive...
I feel I can't do anything.
Even when it comes to my passion, drawing, if I do that too much it becomes an idol...
I can't make friends...I have to wait for God to send them.
I have to wait on the right job ...
Seems like I'm doing alot of waiting...
And sitting around.
I feel like I just can't do a thing. If I do... I'm outside of God's will.
I also feel my cross is simply to be alone and just isolated bc no matter what i do... It doesn't matter. No one sticks or stays...
And I just don't want loneliness ....I just don't.
I can't do it.
I'm tired of being alone and by myself....
It's heart breaking.... I just don't want this for my life.
But I'm really depressed with the reality that is Christianity. It's extremely restrictive...
I feel I can't do anything.
Even when it comes to my passion, drawing, if I do that too much it becomes an idol...
I can't make friends...I have to wait for God to send them.
I have to wait on the right job ...
Seems like I'm doing alot of waiting...
And sitting around.
I feel like I just can't do a thing. If I do... I'm outside of God's will.
I also feel my cross is simply to be alone and just isolated bc no matter what i do... It doesn't matter. No one sticks or stays...
And I just don't want loneliness ....I just don't.
I can't do it.
I'm tired of being alone and by myself....
It's heart breaking.... I just don't want this for my life.