Hey I don’t know if this is the right forum for this but I really need a Christian perspective.
I gave my heart to Jesus when I was a child, was baptised (and I have a Christian family). I lost my way when I was a teen and after many years of ugly I turned back to God about 4 years ago. He has been transforming me ever since and I can tell you now that I’m a completely different person today than I was a few years ago. The changes I have made would not have been possible without His divine intervention. I was an alcoholics, I did drugs sometimes, I couldn’t handle my own temper, my character and everything about me was not who I am. Was not who God intended for me to be.
I turned back to God about 3-4 years ago but I am still living with a partner (not married) who is not a Christian. I condemned myself but I didn’t know how to let go of him and our child (his child actually (my step son)) who I helped raise from 9months old to now 15years of age. (He lives with us). Since I turned back to God great things have been happening. My partner has changed immensely even though He hasn’t given His life to God. When I started changin, he wanted to also and has been to church a few times with me (something that would have been impossible but he wanted to). I still condemned myself so I fasted for 3 days about our situation. You see, he doesn’t believe in marriage and didn’t want to ever get married. When I was lost this was a mutual agreement. But I changed. After my 3 days of fasting I prayed for strength to have the conversation with Him and strength to leave. And out of nowhere when I finally had a talk with my partner said he wanted to get married. He didn’t realise how important it was to me etc He just didn’t want a be in a spotlight.
So we agreed we would work towards marriage. Fast forward several months-almost a year I find out he cheated on me YEARS ago. (With my sister ). Already seems horrible. My sister also lost her way in teen years and is a few years younger than me.
I don’t even know what to do. I keep trying to pray and read my Bible but everything hurts. I already forgive them both because 1. I knew back then (had a suspicion, gut feeling) but no one admitted it to me but in order to move on with my life I needed to forgive even though no one confessed. And 2. My partner and I are both different people and we’ve grown and are happier now than we ever were. (But he still has a long way to go, it’s harder without God).
And now I feel stuck. Do I let go of my family? I don’t like living in sin but I don’t want to marry someone who has cheated on me. My sister is the one who finally confessed but she doesn’t have a good track record of telling the truth due to drugs and mental health issues. My partner denies it. I don’t know who to believe. Ugh it’s so hard because it probably seems simple when you’re NOT in this mess but when you are…… well… you know. It’s different.
I don’t have Christian friends to turn to because I have only been to church a few times. (I’ve always had my quiet time with God since I turned to Him and I watch sermons online and worship all the time but I didn’t join a Christian community until I signed up for home groups just this week. (Just before I found out about all this).
I would really appreciate some prayers. Ima still pray too.
I gave my heart to Jesus when I was a child, was baptised (and I have a Christian family). I lost my way when I was a teen and after many years of ugly I turned back to God about 4 years ago. He has been transforming me ever since and I can tell you now that I’m a completely different person today than I was a few years ago. The changes I have made would not have been possible without His divine intervention. I was an alcoholics, I did drugs sometimes, I couldn’t handle my own temper, my character and everything about me was not who I am. Was not who God intended for me to be.
I turned back to God about 3-4 years ago but I am still living with a partner (not married) who is not a Christian. I condemned myself but I didn’t know how to let go of him and our child (his child actually (my step son)) who I helped raise from 9months old to now 15years of age. (He lives with us). Since I turned back to God great things have been happening. My partner has changed immensely even though He hasn’t given His life to God. When I started changin, he wanted to also and has been to church a few times with me (something that would have been impossible but he wanted to). I still condemned myself so I fasted for 3 days about our situation. You see, he doesn’t believe in marriage and didn’t want to ever get married. When I was lost this was a mutual agreement. But I changed. After my 3 days of fasting I prayed for strength to have the conversation with Him and strength to leave. And out of nowhere when I finally had a talk with my partner said he wanted to get married. He didn’t realise how important it was to me etc He just didn’t want a be in a spotlight.
So we agreed we would work towards marriage. Fast forward several months-almost a year I find out he cheated on me YEARS ago. (With my sister ). Already seems horrible. My sister also lost her way in teen years and is a few years younger than me.
I don’t even know what to do. I keep trying to pray and read my Bible but everything hurts. I already forgive them both because 1. I knew back then (had a suspicion, gut feeling) but no one admitted it to me but in order to move on with my life I needed to forgive even though no one confessed. And 2. My partner and I are both different people and we’ve grown and are happier now than we ever were. (But he still has a long way to go, it’s harder without God).
And now I feel stuck. Do I let go of my family? I don’t like living in sin but I don’t want to marry someone who has cheated on me. My sister is the one who finally confessed but she doesn’t have a good track record of telling the truth due to drugs and mental health issues. My partner denies it. I don’t know who to believe. Ugh it’s so hard because it probably seems simple when you’re NOT in this mess but when you are…… well… you know. It’s different.
I don’t have Christian friends to turn to because I have only been to church a few times. (I’ve always had my quiet time with God since I turned to Him and I watch sermons online and worship all the time but I didn’t join a Christian community until I signed up for home groups just this week. (Just before I found out about all this).
I would really appreciate some prayers. Ima still pray too.
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