Years ago, or maybe even just a year ago... I had the worst dream ... It was me commuting suicide...
I remember praying hard back then , for God to protect me and stop me from foing or saying anything that will bring this about..
And just now, I woke up from a dream with the same theme. Instead, it was my mom in my dream who dreamt I committed suicide...
These dreams are scaring me and I'm afraid of them coming true.... I wonder why God would allow this... I've had dreams where a friend of mine was abt to commit suicide but I prayed for her....
So why does it seem hopeless with me?
Why does God hate me?
I have no friends,no significant other, I'm not doing hot in school/college , I dont even go to church anymore BC of events that pushed me away...also BC I feel the closer I get to him the better chance these dreams may come true..
I'm scared. :-(
I remember praying hard back then , for God to protect me and stop me from foing or saying anything that will bring this about..
And just now, I woke up from a dream with the same theme. Instead, it was my mom in my dream who dreamt I committed suicide...
These dreams are scaring me and I'm afraid of them coming true.... I wonder why God would allow this... I've had dreams where a friend of mine was abt to commit suicide but I prayed for her....
So why does it seem hopeless with me?
Why does God hate me?
I have no friends,no significant other, I'm not doing hot in school/college , I dont even go to church anymore BC of events that pushed me away...also BC I feel the closer I get to him the better chance these dreams may come true..
I'm scared. :-(