Is there a certain connection and being noticed by pretty much everyone? And getting certain reactions out of them?
For example, I work retail and when it's time to ring up the next person they are already staring at my register to come to me out of all the other 14 registers available. It doesn't matter which register im at from #1 or #14 everyone in line stares at my register only.
Also, when a customer is being rung up by another person, I notice their customers will stare over at me on my register which makes my co-worker do the same thing. And in my head im just like why do they keep looking over here, im doing the same thing everyone else is doing. It's something about me and my presence that's negatively drawing people.
This is not a beauty thing as there are other beautiful girls that work there. And nothing about me really stands out, thats what im trying to figure out why im getting all this attention when I do nothing out the ordinary.
Another scenario of me being noticed is when I am sitting on the bus, somehow someone immediately spots me out, again out of the 30-40 ppl on the bus. Then when one person does it other people start doing it. It's like some behind the scenes communication going on regarding me and next thing I know I have about 10-20 eyes on me on and off. It makes me uncomfortable because they look at me as if im doing something wrong by being there.
This is not a race thing either, I get these reactions from all races all age groups. This is something deeper beyond the flesh.
Now these are some of the reactions people have upon encountering me; Cough nonston, sneeze, burp, yawn, spit, sing, whistle, stop in their tracks, stiffly freeze, stretch because they got stiff , get a really mean look on there face as if they KNOW something about me that's different, some will complain that a certain part of them suddenly started to hurt like their head or arm etc. Parents will tell their kids to stay by them, they will have look of fright, pain, worry on their faces.
When I am walking down an aisle someone who appears to be deep in their selections will whip their head over toward my way to look at me as if something drew them to my presence.
I'm not able to function properly with people and visa versa because they usually are always in opposition with me upon sight.
This is not in my head because I have had people confirm that they saw people treat me this way. When people notice me, its like something else is making them notice me. Or like its not the people, but something looking through them at me.
It frightens me and startles me and the only way they'll stop is if I leave. But whatever it is using them will continue to use them from minutes to hours as long as Im there. I dont know how to ignore this, this begins from the moment i step foot outside until i am back at home.
I feel like no one is able to be in my presence and instead of interacting with people physically, i feel like whatever is controlling them interacts with me first.
please help me im screaming inside thank you.
For example, I work retail and when it's time to ring up the next person they are already staring at my register to come to me out of all the other 14 registers available. It doesn't matter which register im at from #1 or #14 everyone in line stares at my register only.
Also, when a customer is being rung up by another person, I notice their customers will stare over at me on my register which makes my co-worker do the same thing. And in my head im just like why do they keep looking over here, im doing the same thing everyone else is doing. It's something about me and my presence that's negatively drawing people.
This is not a beauty thing as there are other beautiful girls that work there. And nothing about me really stands out, thats what im trying to figure out why im getting all this attention when I do nothing out the ordinary.
Another scenario of me being noticed is when I am sitting on the bus, somehow someone immediately spots me out, again out of the 30-40 ppl on the bus. Then when one person does it other people start doing it. It's like some behind the scenes communication going on regarding me and next thing I know I have about 10-20 eyes on me on and off. It makes me uncomfortable because they look at me as if im doing something wrong by being there.
This is not a race thing either, I get these reactions from all races all age groups. This is something deeper beyond the flesh.
Now these are some of the reactions people have upon encountering me; Cough nonston, sneeze, burp, yawn, spit, sing, whistle, stop in their tracks, stiffly freeze, stretch because they got stiff , get a really mean look on there face as if they KNOW something about me that's different, some will complain that a certain part of them suddenly started to hurt like their head or arm etc. Parents will tell their kids to stay by them, they will have look of fright, pain, worry on their faces.
When I am walking down an aisle someone who appears to be deep in their selections will whip their head over toward my way to look at me as if something drew them to my presence.
I'm not able to function properly with people and visa versa because they usually are always in opposition with me upon sight.
This is not in my head because I have had people confirm that they saw people treat me this way. When people notice me, its like something else is making them notice me. Or like its not the people, but something looking through them at me.
It frightens me and startles me and the only way they'll stop is if I leave. But whatever it is using them will continue to use them from minutes to hours as long as Im there. I dont know how to ignore this, this begins from the moment i step foot outside until i am back at home.
I feel like no one is able to be in my presence and instead of interacting with people physically, i feel like whatever is controlling them interacts with me first.
please help me im screaming inside thank you.