"Examine yourselves, whether ye be in the faith; prove your own selves.Know ye not your own selves, how that Jesus Christ is in you, except ye be reprobates?" II Corinthians 13:5
There are a lot of questions being asked on this site. Some are good and thought provoking, and some are silly or tending to generate more uncertainty. There is one question that you do not have time to put off: "whether ye be in the faith..."
This is not a popular question. It is not a comfortable question (i.e. it causes DIS-comfort). But it is a question you must ask yourself. You not only must ask yourself, you must "prove your own selves..." . Is there Biblical, spiritual proof ,enough to assure YOU? You know all your secrets, all your sins, all your lusts , how you REALLY feel about Jesus Christ. Can you prove to yourself, right now, from the Bible,that you are converted?
"Know ye not your own selves, how that Jesus Christ is in you..." Do you know that? Has He been evident in your life? Was there a time YOU confessed and forsook your sin, all known sin, and threw yourself at Jesus feet,begging for mercy for your Hell-deserving soul? Or did you pray a little prayer someone told you to pray, and told Jesus to come into your heart? Well, did He? Did He?
Either you repented and gave yourself wholly to Christ Jesus or you, my friend ,are a reprobate: someone who is lost. Someone that will not go to Heaven.
"except ye be reprobates."
I would be too afraid, too scared, to lay my head on my pillow tonight UNLESS I got this settled.
I believe YOU should examine yourself. Right now.
May God have mercy on you and show you your true condition.
Julian of York
"Except ye repent, ye shall all likewise perish." Luke 13:3